Thanks to the advice of danniisupernova  I think I'm going to volunteer at a woman's shelter. I can watch the kids while the women go to meetings or IDK. All I know is I really want to help. And I can watch kids!

I don't know about being on the help line because I might lose it. What ever they need I want to help!

I start training the newbies tomorrow.

I'm gonna studder and be nervous. I'm dreading it!

I'm gonna need a fucking drink.