Not Pretty Girl (Fic)
Author:
razycrandomgirl
Title: Not a Pretty Girl
Fandom: Heroes
Rating: PG-13 for language
Characters/Pairings: Eden/Gabriel
Disclaimer: Don’t own them. Just like to play with them sometimes.
Spoilers/Time Line: AU
Summery: Eden tries to spare Gabriel and herself
Author’s Notes:
gimmemypicklehave me a prompt. Write a story based on the lyrics below.
Also I'm not super happy about this story but I posted it anyway.
I tried to tell him the truth once. A couple of times actually but right now were talking about this one particular time. I tried to tell him what I used to be, what I was. Cause he kept going on and on about honesty. He knew I was lying to him. He didn’t know it was for his own damn good.
I needed to do whatever I could to do to survive.
Still it’s not enough for him.
What does that mean?
I try to tell him without saying it, but sometimes he can be so very dense when he wants things spelled out. He just wants to hear me say it, but I can not.
It means I’m not as clean as you might think.
'I fucked guys and sometimes they paid me after, pass the peas, honey'. I’m very tempted to tell him. Something in me wants to rub it in his face, but I still want him to be there in the morning.
Men: They prefer you dirty and smiling.
Well?
Hell no.
Imagine you’re a girl, just trying to finally come clean…
He nods his head staring hard and trying to understand. He’s really putting on a fucking show now.
You don’t get it. You never will.
You won’t even try! Don’t you give a damn, Eden? I’m trying!
He’s really pushing.
And I’m trying to protect you, Gabriel! Are you so hell bent on ruining us?
Me? You’re the fucking whore. I know all about... I know...
And there it is. What can I say after that? I can’t deny it but he’s not going make me feel shitty for surviving. So I just stare at him with a kind of smile.
Are you finished?
His head drops and he looks at his hands.
I guess that’s my cue. Gabriel Gray’s too good to be with a fucking whore. I may have been a whore Gabriel … I’ll admit I’ve head sex with men who where not you, but none of them ever made me feel …
He looks up at me, trying out those damn puppy eyes again. Fuck him. I can’t even stand to look at him right now. I pick up my bag and toss a warning that I’ll be back for the rest of my stuff when he’s not here.
He’s still staring at me waiting for more. I shake my head, there’s a soft bitter smile and I wonder if he’s doing this on purpose. Is he just being a coward and looking for a reason to finally end this? Should I make it easy for him?
Well? he says.
Hell no.
Imagine you’re a girl, just trying to finally come clean…
He nods his head staring hard and trying to understand. He’s really putting on a fucking show now.
You don’t get it. You never will.
You won’t even try! Don’t you give a damn, Eden? I’m trying!
He’s really pushing.
And I’m trying to protect you, Gabriel! Are you so hell bent on ruining us?
Me? You’re the fucking whore. I know all about... I know...
And there it is. What can I say after that? I can’t deny it but he’s not going make me feel shitty for surviving. So I just stare at him with a kind of smile.
Are you finished?
His head drops and he looks at his hands.
I guess that’s my cue. Gabriel Gray’s too good to be with a fucking whore. I may have been a whore Gabriel … I’ll admit I’ve head sex with men who where not you, but none of them ever made me feel …
He looks up at me, trying out those damn puppy eyes again. Fuck him. I can’t even stand to look at him right now. I pick up my bag and toss a warning that I’ll be back for the rest of my stuff when he’s not here.
Men: They prefer you dirty and smiling.
Lyrics by Ani DiFranco
And imagine you're a girl
Just trying to finally come clean
Knowing full well they'd prefer you
Were dirty and smiling
razycrandomgirl
Title: Not a Pretty Girl
Fandom: Heroes
Rating: PG-13 for language
Characters/Pairings: Eden/Gabriel
Disclaimer: Don’t own them. Just like to play with them sometimes.
Spoilers/Time Line: AU
Summery: Eden tries to spare Gabriel and herself
Author’s Notes:
gimmemypicklehave me a prompt. Write a story based on the lyrics below.
Also I'm not super happy about this story but I posted it anyway.
I tried to tell him the truth once. A couple of times actually but right now were talking about this one particular time. I tried to tell him what I used to be, what I was. Cause he kept going on and on about honesty. He knew I was lying to him. He didn’t know it was for his own damn good.
I needed to do whatever I could to do to survive.
Still it’s not enough for him.
What does that mean?
I try to tell him without saying it, but sometimes he can be so very dense when he wants things spelled out. He just wants to hear me say it, but I can not.
It means I’m not as clean as you might think.
'I fucked guys and sometimes they paid me after, pass the peas, honey'. I’m very tempted to tell him. Something in me wants to rub it in his face, but I still want him to be there in the morning.
Men: They prefer you dirty and smiling.
Well?
Hell no.
Imagine you’re a girl, just trying to finally come clean…
He nods his head staring hard and trying to understand. He’s really putting on a fucking show now.
You don’t get it. You never will.
You won’t even try! Don’t you give a damn, Eden? I’m trying!
He’s really pushing.
And I’m trying to protect you, Gabriel! Are you so hell bent on ruining us?
Me? You’re the fucking whore. I know all about... I know...
And there it is. What can I say after that? I can’t deny it but he’s not going make me feel shitty for surviving. So I just stare at him with a kind of smile.
Are you finished?
His head drops and he looks at his hands.
I guess that’s my cue. Gabriel Gray’s too good to be with a fucking whore. I may have been a whore Gabriel … I’ll admit I’ve head sex with men who where not you, but none of them ever made me feel …
He looks up at me, trying out those damn puppy eyes again. Fuck him. I can’t even stand to look at him right now. I pick up my bag and toss a warning that I’ll be back for the rest of my stuff when he’s not here.
He’s still staring at me waiting for more. I shake my head, there’s a soft bitter smile and I wonder if he’s doing this on purpose. Is he just being a coward and looking for a reason to finally end this? Should I make it easy for him?
Well? he says.
Hell no.
Imagine you’re a girl, just trying to finally come clean…
He nods his head staring hard and trying to understand. He’s really putting on a fucking show now.
You don’t get it. You never will.
You won’t even try! Don’t you give a damn, Eden? I’m trying!
He’s really pushing.
And I’m trying to protect you, Gabriel! Are you so hell bent on ruining us?
Me? You’re the fucking whore. I know all about... I know...
And there it is. What can I say after that? I can’t deny it but he’s not going make me feel shitty for surviving. So I just stare at him with a kind of smile.
Are you finished?
His head drops and he looks at his hands.
I guess that’s my cue. Gabriel Gray’s too good to be with a fucking whore. I may have been a whore Gabriel … I’ll admit I’ve head sex with men who where not you, but none of them ever made me feel …
He looks up at me, trying out those damn puppy eyes again. Fuck him. I can’t even stand to look at him right now. I pick up my bag and toss a warning that I’ll be back for the rest of my stuff when he’s not here.
Men: They prefer you dirty and smiling.
Lyrics by Ani DiFranco
And imagine you're a girl
Just trying to finally come clean
Knowing full well they'd prefer you
Were dirty and smiling