Otherwise things are good.
*sigh* It is very very disappointing when people i have known for a while really fuck shit up in a way i was hoping they wouldn't. I am usually very good at figuring out who is capable of what and so am almost never surprised when it happens. Sometimes, though, one wants to believe the less pleasant qualities people have will stay in check. As Phillip wistfully points out over and over again, i am not an optimist. I do not believe i am a pessimist either (though he does, i guess). I believe i am a realist. When it comes to humans everything i have read and observed shows me that in certain circumstances normally logical pleasant people turn into little monsters. So i don't get surprised when it happens, just disappointed.
I do not surround myself with people, i am alone creature. There is a reason for this. I choose to surround myself with rats instead who's intentions i view as more honest and strait forward. I am not a loyal person. I don't create bonds with people that are blind to their fuck ups. I won't support anyone "in spite-of-anything-they-do".
The human i choose to live with, who i love and who brings me such joy has a nature to him i find similar to that of the rats. He does not play mind games, he does not loose his temper in hard moments, he is patient. He is also a very honest and giving person. He is virtuous and honorable in the truest sense of the words. These last traits very few people have.
I do not surround myself with people, i am alone creature. There is a reason for this. I choose to surround myself with rats instead who's intentions i view as more honest and strait forward. I am not a loyal person. I don't create bonds with people that are blind to their fuck ups. I won't support anyone "in spite-of-anything-they-do".
The human i choose to live with, who i love and who brings me such joy has a nature to him i find similar to that of the rats. He does not play mind games, he does not loose his temper in hard moments, he is patient. He is also a very honest and giving person. He is virtuous and honorable in the truest sense of the words. These last traits very few people have.