WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK!
I seriously can't stand having people call me and just not leave me alone. Fucking Ryan would not stop calling me tonight and he fucking started bugging Amy and Paul at their house by calling there asking why I wasn't answering my phone. I mean I did say I would be up for hanging out but I really wasn't and I should have told him that but I couldn't b/c well I do wanna know what was up with him 2 years ago and why he turned into this huge asshole. But I don't want him to think that there could ever be an "us" again b/c I don't ever forget shit and I just want to stop calling him and give it to him like he did to me. I probably will but you know I don't need him in my life b/c he reminds me of Paul and I fucking hate Paul. I'd rather find myself a good man who will be amazing to me and treat me like I am the only person who matters and not be some sort of convience since I know he is going to visit and old girlfriend or friend from high school in Japan next month. I am more than encouraging in him going, maybe he'll move there and leave me alone. Like seriously what the fuck, can't I just sit home and not be bothered by retards. I was tempted to get drunk tonight but no one was around plus I don't really have the money, then I found out we had beer here and I called Jessie and she was going to TAGS so I was like fuck it, I'll save the beer for a rainy day. I hate getting drunk by myself. It is no good. I'm all pissed right now, WTF!