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Sitting here listening to John Mayer "vultures" by far one of my fave songs of all-time. instantly makes me feel at ease and happy. am wiiiiiide awake, as i had iced coffee earlier tonight. dumb move, actually, dont give a fuck as it is friday night and i have nothing to do tmw, thank God! i have tay tmw night, but that isnt til 5. spent night with alysa and am so thankful to have someone sane in my life! i often feel that i am another person someone probably in their 30s or 40s just trapped in my body living a wacked out 20 somethings life. what the hell? i wont be sorry for living my life the way i want. this is how we learn and discover and find things out right? I am VERY aware of the things i do and my surroundings. im far more intuitive regarding situations i involve myself in than i appear. i am thankful for thoughts and concerns but am also quick to defend and let everyone know this is my life and ppl cannot protect me forever. i shouldnt owe anything to someone for something they have said or done for me. idk... all im saying is you can be 23 and want to mulch if you want too. and further more i dont give a shit if that doesnt make sense to anyone who reads this.