So I've been thinking....
England will be much better, I suppose.
Perhaps it'll be a good thing for me, I'll get a new start, a new life...At 15, it doesn't sound so much of a horrible idea.
I decree, I've had my share of tears, I believe I have wept enough.
I don't care:
People hate me, I've realized that. I've had a couple of really close friends last year, this year...They're different. This year, they spit in my face. But I realize that it is too late to fix it. To late to continue apologizing for some thing I did not even do. I realize that I can't make people want to look at me without misdeamoner again. I have been highly troubled over this, this thought...Knowing that they'd never have the pleasuer of being my friend again. I've lost such great and close friends for such stupid reason. My hopes...Are not valid anymore. I, for one, am really confused why so many people hate me in the first place. I know, for proven fact, that I am not a likable guy, and I do accept that.
I know people say that I shouldn' expect anything good after a relationship..That a couple after a relationship are supposed to go their seperate ways. I don't want that, though, I've had to deal with that so many times. Something I dislike greatly, I don't understand why ex-girlfriends make such a big deal about it. You break up with a guy without having any valid reason at all, and you leave him hanging there by a fucking noose that you've created. You get angry with him for weeping afterwards...Hmm...Can't imagine why. You females are so horrible after break-ups. I liked you better when you were on your bloody period...You were less drastic and sentimental. Yet, I throw myself out there in the field, knowing I'd get hurt again. But, perhaps I still have hope in finding someone worth my time. Will I.? I would rather highly doubt it.
A shame, really: To think that people would actually pay attention to me after I had trusted them and opened up to them, and they turn around and become a backstabber. Hmn, I can't imagine why I don't talk to you anymore. Don't expect to treat me like shit, and have me open my arms to you because that will never happen. Can I change that.? No, nor will it change for your sake. I don't let people have the pleasure of controlling my emotions and/or treating me like a bloody puppet. 'Tis rather....sad, to be honest.
It feels like a corruption. Now, Many things are corrupt as of the moment, and I don't like sitting around letting them feel at home inside my thoughts. If they were easy to distingiush, I would have done so. But suppose something great were to happen after this hold up in life...That would be...Very unbecoming if only the oppisite were to happen. I feel sincere about what I think about many things, and I only feel that some people just need to be told something...Like the obvious, every now and then. They say to tell them the truth, buth when done so, they retaliate and become pissy about it.
I don't know if I'm done writing this Blog, but I'll keep you updated....God, who am I talking to..No one checks my damn thing.
Perhaps it'll be a good thing for me, I'll get a new start, a new life...At 15, it doesn't sound so much of a horrible idea.
I decree, I've had my share of tears, I believe I have wept enough.
I don't care:
People hate me, I've realized that. I've had a couple of really close friends last year, this year...They're different. This year, they spit in my face. But I realize that it is too late to fix it. To late to continue apologizing for some thing I did not even do. I realize that I can't make people want to look at me without misdeamoner again. I have been highly troubled over this, this thought...Knowing that they'd never have the pleasuer of being my friend again. I've lost such great and close friends for such stupid reason. My hopes...Are not valid anymore. I, for one, am really confused why so many people hate me in the first place. I know, for proven fact, that I am not a likable guy, and I do accept that.
I know people say that I shouldn' expect anything good after a relationship..That a couple after a relationship are supposed to go their seperate ways. I don't want that, though, I've had to deal with that so many times. Something I dislike greatly, I don't understand why ex-girlfriends make such a big deal about it. You break up with a guy without having any valid reason at all, and you leave him hanging there by a fucking noose that you've created. You get angry with him for weeping afterwards...Hmm...Can't imagine why. You females are so horrible after break-ups. I liked you better when you were on your bloody period...You were less drastic and sentimental. Yet, I throw myself out there in the field, knowing I'd get hurt again. But, perhaps I still have hope in finding someone worth my time. Will I.? I would rather highly doubt it.
A shame, really: To think that people would actually pay attention to me after I had trusted them and opened up to them, and they turn around and become a backstabber. Hmn, I can't imagine why I don't talk to you anymore. Don't expect to treat me like shit, and have me open my arms to you because that will never happen. Can I change that.? No, nor will it change for your sake. I don't let people have the pleasure of controlling my emotions and/or treating me like a bloody puppet. 'Tis rather....sad, to be honest.
It feels like a corruption. Now, Many things are corrupt as of the moment, and I don't like sitting around letting them feel at home inside my thoughts. If they were easy to distingiush, I would have done so. But suppose something great were to happen after this hold up in life...That would be...Very unbecoming if only the oppisite were to happen. I feel sincere about what I think about many things, and I only feel that some people just need to be told something...Like the obvious, every now and then. They say to tell them the truth, buth when done so, they retaliate and become pissy about it.
I don't know if I'm done writing this Blog, but I'll keep you updated....God, who am I talking to..No one checks my damn thing.