I can tell this is going to take a while
since i have to sit through all this and watch the world go by. im going to curl my knees under my chin and close my eyes. and imagin that maybe i can reach my hand out and stop something. maybe grab something good for myself and hang on to it close . let the fact that this good thing is happening to me sink in and just ride the wave for a brief time. or even better hold my hand out and possible stop something bad from happeneing to someone so good. let me take the blame, the pain, the stuggle and the weight of someone who doesnt deserve it or isnt strong enough to go through it. am i strong enough to get through it. someone elese pain and mine?