"All hail the HEARTREAKER"

[rayneartist]

AHHHHH! i just wanna yell at the top of my lungs! or take some pills to go to sleep and forget again! or slice my skin! "till a river of crimson begins to flow". I hate my life, i hate everything! im glad i have a 2 hour delay tomorrow! that means i can sleep in after passing out. omg! *CRIES*. i can't take this shit anymore. i hate it! i just HATE it. the ONE thing i had been looking forward to ALL fuckin week was going to the mall to meet Kim and hang out with her cus i like her and she is awesome and funny and likes me and we wanted to meet. And that FELL through! UGH i can't take it. i am looking forward to taking Kim to a movie tuesday but who knows if that will even happen. Kim i know its not ur fault! i still love you! you seem like the only one who loves me anymore. enough to tell me things that is. its like im being betrayed and losing my best friends. i consider myself a trustworthy person. but o fuckin well i guess IM the only one who sees it that way. who needs friends anyway? i mean, people say i dont need to die cus soo many people love me, but guess what? they only show ME that they actually love ME when i almost die. now that im, "better" and i "stopped" taking pills, its gone back to the way it was. "i'll be the giver you be the taker, i guess thats how this one gonna go, i'll be the giver you be the taker, you got me down on my knees and i proclaim, all hail the HEARTBREAKER".

~Jinx (cus i am permenently jinxed for all eternity.)