horrible horrible day
omg! i am talking to tony right now and a friend of his from his school just died in a car accident! omfg i feel like crying! this is horrible. i feel so bad! tony i love you! i am so sorry i know what you are going though hunnie! that is just like the worse thing that could happen trust me i know! this now makes everything i went through at school today just seem like nothing at all. omg, i miss cameron now. this has brought back so much for me that i wanted to forget cus he is on the fone with me right now but he keeps getting calls and he will switch back to me and it was someone from school callin him to make sure he knew and omg i know what he is going through right now, it is so hard, but i also know from experience there is really nothing i can do. i just hope he is ok. i love you so much tony!
well, at school today Ali totally blew me off like, after 2nd hour and then i took a tardy to wait outside her class to see what was up. she told me that the wonderful Dustin was ignorin her and totally blew her off that morning and after 1st so she was upset, then afte 3rd is when i go to lunch and she goes to 4th hour so she always walks with me to my locker then i walk her to her class. well today i was like "aren't you gonna walk with me to my locker" and she was like "no, i need to go to class" i was like "we have 3 minutesand youre class is a lke, 20 sec walk from my locker!" she looks around and notices Dustin standing near my locker so she was like ok! and yeah she stopped by him and then left with him and i was like wtfe. so i hurried up and caught them and tryed to talk to them and they totally blew me off and then turned into a corner to kiss so i was like wtfe, so i just left w/o saying goodbye. so yeah that upset me and on the way up stairs i hit the wall and that made my scabbed up knuckles bleed again. so that sucks. my high point is i got to work on cars again and that is always fun. but then after school i had theatre i park my car in the auto lot so i pulled around to the visitors parking right in front cus i had theatre so the first thing i see when i get inside is Ali and Dustin makin out right there by the main entrance to the auditorium, so i just went outside and talked to people so i didn't it anything again and i went inside when i saw Dustin come outside and leave. THEN Ali ditches me again, so when she got back i was really upset and makin it obvious that i was so she asked me what was wrong and i just told her all she did and she was like "hunnie i didn't even realise i did that i am so sorry!" and of course i fogave her cus i always forgive whether i want to or not. Then SHE got all upset with ME cus i would't let her touch me or hold my hand or kiss me on the cheek or w/e so yeah, i waslike whats wrong and she was like "you wont even let me touch you!" so i told her that last time i liked someone i didn't have a chance with and i let her hold my hand and kiss me and i wanted it, and later it left me hurting way more than anything and it really upset me and hurt me and i just don't want it to happen again" so she was still upset but i still wouldn't let her do all that shit to me. so yeah, i would call her to talk more bout it but i am on the fone with tony and he needs me. well yeah my bloody knuckles hurt and i need a cigg really bad right now.
i saw Paty today! YEY! she is so my mom! i love her so much! she was at school at lunch and she found me and ran up to me so i talked to her and she brought me a Mountain Dew i was like YEY! well, after theatre Paty was at the school and i walked up to her big SUV beast and she was smoking and i kept hittin of her cigg but i did it low and it was funny cus yeah then she gave me 3 vikidin 700's which are like super fuckin strong as hell. i haven't seen her because she was in the hospitol so yeah that is why she came up to the school to see me! YEY :) well yeah, then when WEfinished her cigg, she was like, do you need some? so we went to felspauch and they didn't have any newports, so then we went to the Shell station. Paty comes up to my car and gives me 3 fuckin packs of Newport 100s and she payed for all of them! i was like OMFG YOU SO DIDNT HAVE TO DO THAT and she was like "this should hold you over for a little while ;)" so yeah it was so cool! so i have a good amount of smokes to last me a bit.lol. so i am really happy to have seen Paty! i told ya'll! she spoils the hell outta me! lol!
Well, i guess im gonna get going. Tony, i am so sorry for your loss! i love you so much, i know how it is hunnie, if you need anything at all call me!i love you so much! i love all of you so much! ok, g'nite.
LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER
~Rachel Jo
well, at school today Ali totally blew me off like, after 2nd hour and then i took a tardy to wait outside her class to see what was up. she told me that the wonderful Dustin was ignorin her and totally blew her off that morning and after 1st so she was upset, then afte 3rd is when i go to lunch and she goes to 4th hour so she always walks with me to my locker then i walk her to her class. well today i was like "aren't you gonna walk with me to my locker" and she was like "no, i need to go to class" i was like "we have 3 minutesand youre class is a lke, 20 sec walk from my locker!" she looks around and notices Dustin standing near my locker so she was like ok! and yeah she stopped by him and then left with him and i was like wtfe. so i hurried up and caught them and tryed to talk to them and they totally blew me off and then turned into a corner to kiss so i was like wtfe, so i just left w/o saying goodbye. so yeah that upset me and on the way up stairs i hit the wall and that made my scabbed up knuckles bleed again. so that sucks. my high point is i got to work on cars again and that is always fun. but then after school i had theatre i park my car in the auto lot so i pulled around to the visitors parking right in front cus i had theatre so the first thing i see when i get inside is Ali and Dustin makin out right there by the main entrance to the auditorium, so i just went outside and talked to people so i didn't it anything again and i went inside when i saw Dustin come outside and leave. THEN Ali ditches me again, so when she got back i was really upset and makin it obvious that i was so she asked me what was wrong and i just told her all she did and she was like "hunnie i didn't even realise i did that i am so sorry!" and of course i fogave her cus i always forgive whether i want to or not. Then SHE got all upset with ME cus i would't let her touch me or hold my hand or kiss me on the cheek or w/e so yeah, i waslike whats wrong and she was like "you wont even let me touch you!" so i told her that last time i liked someone i didn't have a chance with and i let her hold my hand and kiss me and i wanted it, and later it left me hurting way more than anything and it really upset me and hurt me and i just don't want it to happen again" so she was still upset but i still wouldn't let her do all that shit to me. so yeah, i would call her to talk more bout it but i am on the fone with tony and he needs me. well yeah my bloody knuckles hurt and i need a cigg really bad right now.
i saw Paty today! YEY! she is so my mom! i love her so much! she was at school at lunch and she found me and ran up to me so i talked to her and she brought me a Mountain Dew i was like YEY! well, after theatre Paty was at the school and i walked up to her big SUV beast and she was smoking and i kept hittin of her cigg but i did it low and it was funny cus yeah then she gave me 3 vikidin 700's which are like super fuckin strong as hell. i haven't seen her because she was in the hospitol so yeah that is why she came up to the school to see me! YEY :) well yeah, then when WEfinished her cigg, she was like, do you need some? so we went to felspauch and they didn't have any newports, so then we went to the Shell station. Paty comes up to my car and gives me 3 fuckin packs of Newport 100s and she payed for all of them! i was like OMFG YOU SO DIDNT HAVE TO DO THAT and she was like "this should hold you over for a little while ;)" so yeah it was so cool! so i have a good amount of smokes to last me a bit.lol. so i am really happy to have seen Paty! i told ya'll! she spoils the hell outta me! lol!
Well, i guess im gonna get going. Tony, i am so sorry for your loss! i love you so much, i know how it is hunnie, if you need anything at all call me!i love you so much! i love all of you so much! ok, g'nite.
LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER
~Rachel Jo