This pain in my chest...

[rayblaze]

For a little more than two weeks this pain has come and gone in my chest.  I never realized emotions could do this to a person.  I just watched Buffy the vampire slayer, and the pain I feel is similar to the one you imagine the vampires feeling when they are stabbed with the wooden spears.  I think there are two reasons for this pain right now; the girl, and the great need to be out of this house, free, understood, accepted.  I did a lot of shit today.  I was fucking productive, and yet dinner came and I found my eyes watering, and my chest throbbing more than ever.  I feel worse than I felt sophmoroe year, and I didn't think that was possible.

I hate her so much.

I hate me so much.