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okay.. angrier than i thought.. WHERE THE FUCK ARE MY LAXITIVES.. THE BOX IS WHERE I KEPT IT BUT THE PILLS ARE NOT IN IT... WTF WTF WTF. i know that they're not taken, i'm sure i just put the somewhere else.. i think i threw them out in a fit of getting better.. but right now i NEED them. i'm not kidding about needing them.. i've fucked up my digestive system so much that i can't "go" now that i havn't used "tendencies" for a week... I HATE THIS. i'm probably just going to get FATTER uhg.i need my pills. WHERE THE FUCK DID I PUT THEM? i'm drunk. and i want to "go". by "go" i mean USE THE TOILET LIKE A NORMAL HUMAN this sucks. i never win. i hate eating disorders. i hate the fact that i can't digest food properly. never have been able to since the age of 14... 2 years after this sdtarted.. what kind of 12 year old decides this fucked up route?... uhg. i just want to eat something and poop it out normally.. wtf. uhg . why? i'm upset.