>> it can drive a girl up the wall.
I'm waiting for the moment when all the things I ever wanted or needed.. that I have now.. that I can't live without, are ALL going to leave me in someway, somehow. Things are at such a calm & good point that the minute things get screwy.. I'm gonna go crazy & freak out royally. This past weekend was the first point in a couple of weeks that things had gone.. differently?
Meg's home. I couldn't wait any longer for college to get out for her & see her! I mean.. she got home on Saturday.. & I already upset her slightly on Saturday night. Now, of course, things are ok, but what the HECK!? Tabs was mad at me as well, & when Tabs is mad at you.. that's the worst. Cuz, she doesn't get mad. & if she does.. don't do anything else to piss her off. Yeah.. but I mean.. it's all good now. But then I was makin' 5oMillion phone calls trying to redeem myself. It was just bad.
But I got to see Kyle. Stace & I went to go see Footloose on Saturday night. It was decent, obviously not our school play.. but by the end of the night I had 2 Kyle *hugs* & major amounts of conversation, plus a wonderful signature on my program. He's.. the greatest. I'm seeing myself with him already, & that is a VeRy bad thing. I can't be with him. He's a player & a manhore, but otherwise.. he's.. perfect. I was talkin' to Christyopher about it last night, it was crazy. I was just soo confused.
I hate being confused about my own life, really.
Prom is in 1o days. & I'll be with Kyle all night. That is going to be the best.
Graduation.. is June 14th. My whole world is changing.. & I'm ready for it.
Maybe all the confusion will disappear, & things will be back to wonderful. :o)
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