drama and bitches both suck
I got the worst possible news Monday night from Andrew.
I hadn't talked to the boy in a few weeks because I told him that I couldn't be with him. I told him that I didn't feel secure in a relationship with him and that I wasn't ready to experience the seriousness of being with someone that I'm already in love with. Plus I tried to be with him all summer and I never was good enough to have the girlfriend title until Mike came along.
I've been dating Mike for the past month. We have fun and everything, but it just doesn't feel right. Mike tells me he loves me sometimes (ALREADY!), but he knows that his feelings are a lot stronger than mine. I've just been thinking about Andrew a lot, wondering if I made the wrong decision. I've been thinking about him to the point where I can't stop and it hurts my heart.
Dana, my "best friend", is dating Andrew's best friend (friends since they were both born) for about nine months. The two of them were planning on getting married and moving in together once Josh got out of the home (he was sent away for painting on a church; something he didn't even do). Dana met Josh (and Andrew) through me and after a while of hanging out fell for Josh.
The first time I talked to Andrew was the other night. He decided to call me because he was having girl problems. It turned out that he's having girl problems with Dana. Ever since they started getting along, right after Josh got sent away and his mom start throwing all of his belongings to the curb, they've been messing around. Andrew fucks Dana, kisses Dana, and is even carrying on a fuckin emotional relationship, like going out to dinner and the movies, with his best friend's fiance. He says it's because he knows it won't hurt when she leaves him, once Josh comes back.
Dana is so stupid. She's cheated on every boyfriend she's ever had and even with some guy she said raped her multiple times before she had sex willingly with him, just so she doesn't look like the whore she is. To top it off, Andrew told me that he had a few accidents in her. I guess two abortions weren't enough to teach her about the safety of a condom.
I guess Andrew was right when he said Dana wouldn't stay faithful to Josh when he moved away. That it would take her less than a month to find a new fuck.
The funny thing is, I knew all of this would happen. I told Senor a few weeks ago, when Dana's mom was out of town and Andrew brought movies to her house, that something would happen between them, even though they hadn't done anything at that point and didn't that night. I knew before Dana and Josh even hooked up. I've told Andrew not to like her since last May.
It just kind of sucks when someone you're in love with hooks up with someone that is close to you. The whole summer, when Dana had Josh pussy-whipped and wouldn't let him hang out with his friends, Andrew and all of the other boys always talked shit about her. They said the meanest things. How can you talk to, let alone fuck, someone who you've said so much shit about? They used to call her abortion girl for Christ's sake and even tried to break Josh and Dana up because they hated her so much.
I guess Andrew doesn't remember how easy Dana is. She hooked up with Josh one night when we went to her "boyfriend's" house to drink (when she hadn't even had a drop of alcohol on her lips or any other drug for that matter). Dana was in bed with Josh and David when she did it. She gave him a handjob with David right next to them. Then, the following night, she fucked him....after about 3 times of meeting him.
I talked to Andrew all Monday night. I spent the hours just crying. I couldn't sleep and my brother was yelling at me to get off of the phone, so I went out to my car to talk. He asked me to come over and I did. We just talked about everything and I told him how it doesn't feel right to be with who I'm with. That I should have picked him. I talked to his mom a little bit, about everything, and then we went and crawled in bed. We cuddled a little bit and talked, but he had the nerve to try and kiss me. I don't want Dana's left overs, even though she obviously doesn't mind mine, I don't want to hurt Mike, and I don't want to get all emotional over Andrew again if nothing is going to come of it.
How could he even expect me to want to touch him after he fucked that bitch? The first time he tried to kiss me, I pushed him away and told him not to because I knew later that day, when Dana came by, he'd be all over her. All he said was probably.
Fuck that. I'm not into casual sex that hurts other people's feelings. At least I had the respect for myself and him to find someone to be with that he knew nothing of. I didn't go out and fuck one of his friends.
I talked to Dana earlier that day, before Andrew told me what was going on. I asked her how he was and she said she didn't know, she hadn't talked to him for a few weeks. She told me the last she heard, he was with some girl named Britany. I guess she didn't remember that she had just spent a whole week at his house, staying the night to cuddle and everything, because of all the weed and drinking they've been doing together.
This is the exact reason why I hate bitches and do not have them as friends. All girls care about is getting laid, breaking hearts, and being fucked up.
I hadn't talked to the boy in a few weeks because I told him that I couldn't be with him. I told him that I didn't feel secure in a relationship with him and that I wasn't ready to experience the seriousness of being with someone that I'm already in love with. Plus I tried to be with him all summer and I never was good enough to have the girlfriend title until Mike came along.
I've been dating Mike for the past month. We have fun and everything, but it just doesn't feel right. Mike tells me he loves me sometimes (ALREADY!), but he knows that his feelings are a lot stronger than mine. I've just been thinking about Andrew a lot, wondering if I made the wrong decision. I've been thinking about him to the point where I can't stop and it hurts my heart.
Dana, my "best friend", is dating Andrew's best friend (friends since they were both born) for about nine months. The two of them were planning on getting married and moving in together once Josh got out of the home (he was sent away for painting on a church; something he didn't even do). Dana met Josh (and Andrew) through me and after a while of hanging out fell for Josh.
The first time I talked to Andrew was the other night. He decided to call me because he was having girl problems. It turned out that he's having girl problems with Dana. Ever since they started getting along, right after Josh got sent away and his mom start throwing all of his belongings to the curb, they've been messing around. Andrew fucks Dana, kisses Dana, and is even carrying on a fuckin emotional relationship, like going out to dinner and the movies, with his best friend's fiance. He says it's because he knows it won't hurt when she leaves him, once Josh comes back.
Dana is so stupid. She's cheated on every boyfriend she's ever had and even with some guy she said raped her multiple times before she had sex willingly with him, just so she doesn't look like the whore she is. To top it off, Andrew told me that he had a few accidents in her. I guess two abortions weren't enough to teach her about the safety of a condom.
I guess Andrew was right when he said Dana wouldn't stay faithful to Josh when he moved away. That it would take her less than a month to find a new fuck.
The funny thing is, I knew all of this would happen. I told Senor a few weeks ago, when Dana's mom was out of town and Andrew brought movies to her house, that something would happen between them, even though they hadn't done anything at that point and didn't that night. I knew before Dana and Josh even hooked up. I've told Andrew not to like her since last May.
It just kind of sucks when someone you're in love with hooks up with someone that is close to you. The whole summer, when Dana had Josh pussy-whipped and wouldn't let him hang out with his friends, Andrew and all of the other boys always talked shit about her. They said the meanest things. How can you talk to, let alone fuck, someone who you've said so much shit about? They used to call her abortion girl for Christ's sake and even tried to break Josh and Dana up because they hated her so much.
I guess Andrew doesn't remember how easy Dana is. She hooked up with Josh one night when we went to her "boyfriend's" house to drink (when she hadn't even had a drop of alcohol on her lips or any other drug for that matter). Dana was in bed with Josh and David when she did it. She gave him a handjob with David right next to them. Then, the following night, she fucked him....after about 3 times of meeting him.
I talked to Andrew all Monday night. I spent the hours just crying. I couldn't sleep and my brother was yelling at me to get off of the phone, so I went out to my car to talk. He asked me to come over and I did. We just talked about everything and I told him how it doesn't feel right to be with who I'm with. That I should have picked him. I talked to his mom a little bit, about everything, and then we went and crawled in bed. We cuddled a little bit and talked, but he had the nerve to try and kiss me. I don't want Dana's left overs, even though she obviously doesn't mind mine, I don't want to hurt Mike, and I don't want to get all emotional over Andrew again if nothing is going to come of it.
How could he even expect me to want to touch him after he fucked that bitch? The first time he tried to kiss me, I pushed him away and told him not to because I knew later that day, when Dana came by, he'd be all over her. All he said was probably.
Fuck that. I'm not into casual sex that hurts other people's feelings. At least I had the respect for myself and him to find someone to be with that he knew nothing of. I didn't go out and fuck one of his friends.
I talked to Dana earlier that day, before Andrew told me what was going on. I asked her how he was and she said she didn't know, she hadn't talked to him for a few weeks. She told me the last she heard, he was with some girl named Britany. I guess she didn't remember that she had just spent a whole week at his house, staying the night to cuddle and everything, because of all the weed and drinking they've been doing together.
This is the exact reason why I hate bitches and do not have them as friends. All girls care about is getting laid, breaking hearts, and being fucked up.