stream of consciousness
cryptic. self pity. wanting communication. lacking communication. tears. laughter. alcohol. bruises. text messaging rampages. boiling emotions. words, words, words. questions unasked. questions unanswered. a dead man in the ice. 5000 years old. magic. friends? once lovers. memories emerging in dreams. dialogues heard in my head. circles and circles and circles again, they said. tori. music. beauty. art. unwritten poetry. unfastened snaps. never before heard lyrics. journal entries. yes. yes. no. no. please? dreams of london. europe. small world. yes i can. no i can't. you love me. what is real? ideas. fantastical illusions. help. abby road. conversations at 4 in the morning. story of o. running as fast as i can. snow. ice. purity. trees. boys. girls. adventures in babysitting. 'roni and cheese. shoes. horses. money. damien rice. surrender. pj's worn all day. dancer in the dark. disneyland. tattoos. never ending night. stars. making love in the moonlight. la verne. memories, memories, memories. gold dust. dead grandparents. waiting for the sunrise. sweet potato french fries with honey and a chocolate coke, please. delirium and dazzler are my favorite. wait! perhaps jubilee. a white strip of hair in the front. vampires. makeup. sleeping until 4 in the afternoon. procrastinating homework. wanting the phone to ring. e-mail. check it. check me. no, check you. not talking for 3 days. crying. bureaucratic bull-shite. i love you. i'm not who you all think i am. destiny. death. delirium. dream. despair. desire. destruction. the endless. where's delight? note cards. crashing waves. helpless children. pretty, kitty, button, cotton, mitten. hair: short or long? black. snow white and beauty. ms zebra. cannonball. dude, where's my country? the shaved ape. globalization. click, click, click. piano with effects. cell-phone ring tones. gizmos and gadgets galore. concerts. family. pretty good year. was it? no, i don't think it was. nasty, dirty, horny sex. dizzying. whirlwinds of life. le, utp, bfp, ftch, tvab, slg, sw, taol. ugly. lain. fade into you. ok, i'll try. cough syrup. pot. vodka, my friend, where have you gone? the red room. twin peaks. party twins. i need something more. ummmmmmmm, yeah. fading. end.