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I miss him. I don't know how that's possible after what he did. Okay, screw that, I know I wouldn't be able to do anything else. But this is fucking ridiculous. Even after the cheap owl he hired nearly crashed the place down and tried to take my eye out when I tried refusing to accept the letter. I know I'm still miffed by it, but I don't think I can be angry anymore. At least I'm not at Amara's place so he can't see the mess I'm in.
I know the only thing keeping me from caving is the unopened letters at the bottom of the drawer. Once I allow myself to talk to him, my resolve would break.
I just want everybody to know that I am fine and that I haven't disappeared off the face of this planet. But too many things have happened in succession for me to know what to say. The only thing I could do was wait for things to calm down a bit.
I really don't know what else to say. I think I'll go mop this dingy room for maybe the hundredth time.