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I was so angry... I was so angry I just lost it. All that he said. Was it really just an act? To get me to crawl back to him because he missed what we had together? And then when he gets tired of it he'll try something like what he did again? What they were talking about... I refuse to think the worst of Ant, but it's not hard to, given his track record.
I hate the sort of wimp I'm becoming because of this. I hate that I don't even need a reason anymore. I find my cheeks wet at the slightest provocation. I hate this person I'm becoming. I never used to be like this.
I threw the cufflinks away.
It's time for a clean break.
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I'm not going for lunch, or dinner. I'm fine though. I'm just hiding in the dorm. Or maybe elsewhere on the grounds. Don't worry.
Amara? Thank you for keeping your promise.
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There are three kinds of people in the world. The kind who betray others, the kind who gets betayed by others and learn their mistake and the kind that gets betrayed but never learns.
I hope I'm not the third kind.
EDIT:
I went back for it. I went back to the forbidden forest to look for it. Got my hands and knees scraped for it. Bloody pathetic. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I miss him.