Ohh... boy
BILLY's journal entry: well i thought my troubles were bout to be over... WRONG WRONG WRONG in fact... they've gotten even worst... like the band "credience clear water" said... "someone told me long ago, theres a calm before the storm..." im stuck in this trio love thing... what it would be called... who knows. but there is one primarily good thing... I HAVE A DATE ON FRIDAY!!!! but now my bestfriends sister has a crush on me so i think its making my best friend jelous. but my best friends sister lives in texas... (shes 17) so i.. who knows whats gonna happen. but i guess it may work out perfectly... tho i how my best friend is acting... she told her sister that she (the sister) needs to stop calling me. and well... honestly i cant say jelous but i dont know what to call it. but it is getting annoying and i dont want my best friend hating me or being mad at me because of it. well im rambeling but hey ITS MY JOURNAL lol but it is enough... how is every one doing??? lol not as confused as me?? thats a plus on your behalf.. well gotta go later
Gee wiz.. god I don't really give a crap who goes out with who as long as I don't have to hear about it from people constantly. Like yeah I talk about William a lot, BUT I am doing much better on keeping it to myself. THOUGH if Billy want's me to stop talking about my love then he should stop pestering me about my own gosh darn sister! I KNOW my sister is awesome.. I know she is the greatest and I know she is all that. NOW I don't really care to hear she calls him a lot and all the stupid details that go along with it. ME... I avoid the calls so I don't get sucked into a world of emotions and feel lonely cuz my sister isn't here with me, she is entrapped with her birth parents. Dear God, why is it that somehow this world finds new ways to me about miss my sister.. I mean I miss my sister terribly... but hearing about her constantly kills me insaides and hurts my heart so much that it makes me feel like crying. I know theres nothing I can do about it, and its not that I'm jelous.. because if I were jelous I wouldn't be so excited that Alyssa is going to the dance with Billy! I wish that the world would understand that I love Tracy, but I just don't wish to be reminded about the emptiness I feel inside without her. Why would Billy think I'm jelous? Honestly if I have no need to be jelous because if I really wanted Billy... well I've had thousands of chances and I passed them all up! I'm just frustrated and heartbroken without my sister... and him bringing her up all the time.. confuses me more... brings out emotions I wish to ignore... I'm not supposed to be weak. I'm a strong chica... who has places to go.. and things to do. I'm not supposed to be brought down my thoughts, my emotions or anything relating to that stuff! I don't have time to deal with petty little things such as that. They're not important. Anyhowe... why I am moaning and groaning again on this thing.. I have no friggen clue. Though hey, I do have good news! William and I will be making an appearance at the dance Friday night together! Yay! William finally gets to goto one of OUR dances!! He'll get to meet all my other friend's he hasn't already met from various events. Well anyhow... you guys are probably thinking this is all quite boring.. so I'm gonna quit while I'm ahead. Billy's supposed to call in 5mins anways. Tata 4 now!
Love 2 all and 2 all a goodnight!,
Facade