Oh, shitballs.
My head is spinning.
A lot is going on right now in wake of a hazy, turn-of-events weekend.
Time has taken a toll on my ability to hold up a relationship that was beginning to suck the life from me. I say beginning because I stopped something dead in its tracks before it went any further. I can't sit there and be subject to another's possessive mistrust no matter how much I care for them. I guess the wall that I had built up after my divorce left a boundary scar around my heart that tunes up the confidence I have to say something. To do something.
I am sad, but at the same time relieved that I have the ability to stand up for myself after accepting my life as a selfless person.
"What now" is what I have to answer. Live. Experience. Enjoy. That's what.
Another thing--I don't have words to describe my love for the strongest safetly net ever, my friends and family. The twinkles in my eyes are from you.
~*~
A lot is going on right now in wake of a hazy, turn-of-events weekend.
Time has taken a toll on my ability to hold up a relationship that was beginning to suck the life from me. I say beginning because I stopped something dead in its tracks before it went any further. I can't sit there and be subject to another's possessive mistrust no matter how much I care for them. I guess the wall that I had built up after my divorce left a boundary scar around my heart that tunes up the confidence I have to say something. To do something.
I am sad, but at the same time relieved that I have the ability to stand up for myself after accepting my life as a selfless person.
"What now" is what I have to answer. Live. Experience. Enjoy. That's what.
Another thing--I don't have words to describe my love for the strongest safetly net ever, my friends and family. The twinkles in my eyes are from you.
~*~