Mar 30, 2005 02:30
I guess im not going to finish, why? because it is pointless. its amazing how emotionless about the situation I try to be, and yet it still has the power to nearly bring me to my knees. I hate it. It truly makes me feel weak and needy. I shouldent feel that way. No one should. but it seems the more I try to harden myself the softer I get. There has got to be an outlet to help me focus on the future and cut myself off from those usless, malignant habits and tendencies. It has to stop sometime.. either soon with some hard work and posative thinking or when it finally pushes me over the edge.