life as of now...pt. 1
It has been so long since I last updated this thing, but alot has happend since then. First of all I moved 27 miles north to a little town called Esparto. It's a tiny little stoping point for people to get stuff on theyre way to an Indian gaming casino and resort about 10 miles up the road. The traffic comming through here is horrible, mostly people whoe are drunk and pissed that they lost all there money and they speed back to the hiway causing all sorts of accidents.
I moved here because my mother bought a house here and wants to raise my neice in a quiet out of the way place.
So here I have been since june with no computer exept the one at the public library, no reliable phone, no car and a half hour drive from my friends.
In October I applied for a job at the casino. the position is called houseman and and entails setting up and taking down the confrence and banquet halls and the bingo parlor. It pays $10.00 an hour...
so last monday I had a dream. I was at my old primary school. i was as old as I am now and seemed to know alot of people who I cant ever remember meeting. As I am slowly hovering(i fly alot in my dreams) away from the school down the same route I used to take home I remembered that my ex-girlfriend used to live virtually across the street, past a curch parking lot.
Not wanting to stir up any unwanted sadness (too late)I turned my head and kept floating down the allyway i used to take. the allyway opens up on the same street her house was on and I remembered that she moved out with her husband years ago. So I decided to take a lesiurely flight past her house to see if I could re-live any happy memories(bad idea). As I get closer I notice an unfamiliar car out front along the street, and as I floted closer I noticed the windows were fogged up a bit. Upon reaching the car I saw my ex and her husband doing what couples do..
then I broke. I felt an uncontrollable jelous rage explode out of me as I ripped the sun roof off and tore into the car like a lazer guided bomb. I beat him with daemoninc hands untill his lower jaw was torn off and his face looked like it had been run through a meat grinder. the whole tim my ex was pounding on my head and shoulders begging and screaming for me to spare him...then she got out of the car and tried to run. She didnt get far. In my rage I about to worse to her then I had done to hin when i realised that i loved her more then I was angry for leaving me. So I let her go running into the night unharmed. I began to cry for aloeing my pent up reage to ruin her life, and then I woke up.
that afternoon I recived a call from the casino for an interview. there I am thinking "shit, things are looking up" when I realize that I have no decent clothes to wear to a job interview. Being 27 and asking your mom for shit is very humbling and emberasing, even more so to admit to. no wonder I got dumped by my ex.
the next day I went to the mall in the nearest town wich is 14 miles east of here. I went with my mom and neice, again very humbling for a 27 year old. here I am in what should be the prime of my life living off the good graces of my mother when I should be out on my own beggining a career. no wonder I'm single.
so there I am in target with a cart full of new clothes and shit while my mother is in the childrens department shopping for my neice. I'm standing ther in front of the registers while my neice it trying to grab the toys she got out of the cart and opening them. When out of the corner of my eye I see something that immediatly draws my attention.. by the time my body reacts it had sat down on a bench behind the registers. My heart began to race............. stay tuned to tomorrows episode....because My computer time is up.....
I moved here because my mother bought a house here and wants to raise my neice in a quiet out of the way place.
So here I have been since june with no computer exept the one at the public library, no reliable phone, no car and a half hour drive from my friends.
In October I applied for a job at the casino. the position is called houseman and and entails setting up and taking down the confrence and banquet halls and the bingo parlor. It pays $10.00 an hour...
so last monday I had a dream. I was at my old primary school. i was as old as I am now and seemed to know alot of people who I cant ever remember meeting. As I am slowly hovering(i fly alot in my dreams) away from the school down the same route I used to take home I remembered that my ex-girlfriend used to live virtually across the street, past a curch parking lot.
Not wanting to stir up any unwanted sadness (too late)I turned my head and kept floating down the allyway i used to take. the allyway opens up on the same street her house was on and I remembered that she moved out with her husband years ago. So I decided to take a lesiurely flight past her house to see if I could re-live any happy memories(bad idea). As I get closer I notice an unfamiliar car out front along the street, and as I floted closer I noticed the windows were fogged up a bit. Upon reaching the car I saw my ex and her husband doing what couples do..
then I broke. I felt an uncontrollable jelous rage explode out of me as I ripped the sun roof off and tore into the car like a lazer guided bomb. I beat him with daemoninc hands untill his lower jaw was torn off and his face looked like it had been run through a meat grinder. the whole tim my ex was pounding on my head and shoulders begging and screaming for me to spare him...then she got out of the car and tried to run. She didnt get far. In my rage I about to worse to her then I had done to hin when i realised that i loved her more then I was angry for leaving me. So I let her go running into the night unharmed. I began to cry for aloeing my pent up reage to ruin her life, and then I woke up.
that afternoon I recived a call from the casino for an interview. there I am thinking "shit, things are looking up" when I realize that I have no decent clothes to wear to a job interview. Being 27 and asking your mom for shit is very humbling and emberasing, even more so to admit to. no wonder I got dumped by my ex.
the next day I went to the mall in the nearest town wich is 14 miles east of here. I went with my mom and neice, again very humbling for a 27 year old. here I am in what should be the prime of my life living off the good graces of my mother when I should be out on my own beggining a career. no wonder I'm single.
so there I am in target with a cart full of new clothes and shit while my mother is in the childrens department shopping for my neice. I'm standing ther in front of the registers while my neice it trying to grab the toys she got out of the cart and opening them. When out of the corner of my eye I see something that immediatly draws my attention.. by the time my body reacts it had sat down on a bench behind the registers. My heart began to race............. stay tuned to tomorrows episode....because My computer time is up.....