Deployment underway...here we go again
Well, Steve is on his way to Iraq right now. I hate saying good bye. It never gets easier. I'm always fine up until the day before/day of, then I lose it.
I feel like a mopey mess right now. And whenever Steve isn't home my hormones go all out of whack. I cry at everything. I hate shows like Extreme Home Makeover when Steve's gone. I watch them all the time, but I am a mess when Steve is gone watching shows like that.
It's just so hard, ya know? I mean, I know it's part of his job. This is what he does. But it's still hard to say good bye. It's hard to be forced to say good bye to the one you love so much and for 12 months! I've done this twice before. You'd think it would be a smoother transition this time around, but it's not. He's going back to Iraq. He's on his way right now. At least this time they'll have internet in their CHU this time and both of our laptops have cameras and we signed up for Skype. Maybe this won't be too bad. It'll be nice to hear from him more often since he won't be going on missions. I'm grateful that he's not going to Afghanistan, but I have a friend who will next year for his deployment. And Steve is rooming with a really good friends of his, so I'm glad they'll have each other to keep calm. His friend and his wife just found out they were gonna have a baby a week ago, so I know it won't be easy for them. But I'm here and she knows to call me whenever she needs anything.
I will try and visit and hang out with everyone when I can. I just hate being here by myself when Steve's not here. I'm also trying to find a new job and I hope it will be for the better. I feel so depressed right now. I'm sure there's some type of school work I should be doing or studying for, but I can't bring myself to do it.
I miss Steve a lot already. There's still camo stuff everywhere that he didn't have room to bring that I need to mail out. Time to bring out this old Navy work shirt he used to wear that I always use as a blankie when he's deployed...and a stuff bear I bought him for our first Christmas. I need to cuddle things.
OH if anyone wants Steve's Iraq address please let me know. If anyone wants to get care packages together for him or any soldiers over there (he can give boxes to anyone on his FOB), please let me know. I'd be happy to send you his mailing address.
Ok, I'm still crying. I miss him. I miss my friends.
Thanks for listening to me. I'll have a few sad and sappy posts until I get things back on track.
Many hugs to you all. Steve said he will try and update his FB and LJ once they get everything situated over there.
I feel like a mopey mess right now. And whenever Steve isn't home my hormones go all out of whack. I cry at everything. I hate shows like Extreme Home Makeover when Steve's gone. I watch them all the time, but I am a mess when Steve is gone watching shows like that.
It's just so hard, ya know? I mean, I know it's part of his job. This is what he does. But it's still hard to say good bye. It's hard to be forced to say good bye to the one you love so much and for 12 months! I've done this twice before. You'd think it would be a smoother transition this time around, but it's not. He's going back to Iraq. He's on his way right now. At least this time they'll have internet in their CHU this time and both of our laptops have cameras and we signed up for Skype. Maybe this won't be too bad. It'll be nice to hear from him more often since he won't be going on missions. I'm grateful that he's not going to Afghanistan, but I have a friend who will next year for his deployment. And Steve is rooming with a really good friends of his, so I'm glad they'll have each other to keep calm. His friend and his wife just found out they were gonna have a baby a week ago, so I know it won't be easy for them. But I'm here and she knows to call me whenever she needs anything.
I will try and visit and hang out with everyone when I can. I just hate being here by myself when Steve's not here. I'm also trying to find a new job and I hope it will be for the better. I feel so depressed right now. I'm sure there's some type of school work I should be doing or studying for, but I can't bring myself to do it.
I miss Steve a lot already. There's still camo stuff everywhere that he didn't have room to bring that I need to mail out. Time to bring out this old Navy work shirt he used to wear that I always use as a blankie when he's deployed...and a stuff bear I bought him for our first Christmas. I need to cuddle things.
OH if anyone wants Steve's Iraq address please let me know. If anyone wants to get care packages together for him or any soldiers over there (he can give boxes to anyone on his FOB), please let me know. I'd be happy to send you his mailing address.
Ok, I'm still crying. I miss him. I miss my friends.
Thanks for listening to me. I'll have a few sad and sappy posts until I get things back on track.
Many hugs to you all. Steve said he will try and update his FB and LJ once they get everything situated over there.