With Bloodshot eyes I watch you sleeping...the warmth beside me is slowly fading....
Life Blows...
I hate Tim Whoretons...especially 9 and fucking harper...
what happened to me?
My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place
The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you
I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you owe me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed
Why do other whorish girls always intervene with my relationships...with corey it was mary foist...which I really eh whatever...Im going through the smae heart wrenching pain all over again but Im wrong. It can be compared to my friendship with will...ME AND WILL DONT FLIRT! HES DATING BRITTANY! AND EVEN WHEN HE WASNT...WE DONT FLIRT! its bullshit...its beeter off comparing me to what me and john were...until I found out him and Karen have been dating over a year...thats not good....::shiver::
But now with terry theres erin...stupid girl I work with and that he used to work with (now he works for a body shop) and I work with her thursday and shes gonna fucking never hear the end of my snide evil bitchiness..I cant touch her but I can make her feel like shit. stupid whore. oh were just friends...shes just a happy person...NO WHEN SHE FLIRTS WITH YOU AND YOU FLIRT BACK AND IM NOT AROUND AND YOU GET TOLD BY A FRIEND WHOS ALSO FRIENDS WITH ME, TERRY STOP FLIRTING...UH YEAH THATS FLIRTING...dont even try to not make it your fault...
So far in this relationship, I'm too dumb to understand, hes not gonna chase after me cause im not worth it, im retarded, i need to work out, im a liar I could go on and on...but lets just say I dont think much of myself at all anymore...all the confidence gained now gone. I got fatter. I went from 139(which was anorexic) to 165...I mean I dont wanna go back to looking sick...like a skeleton with skin pulled over it. I just wanna be like 150...average...
I just wanna be happy....
And I miss my dad like no other...I just wanna see him...but we always miss each others calls...my 20 to his 1...I cant help it I work 2-10...I never have time..
anyways brittany dalton and his friend cody are telling me I type too much so....later
I hate Tim Whoretons...especially 9 and fucking harper...
what happened to me?
My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place
The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you
I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you owe me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed
Why do other whorish girls always intervene with my relationships...with corey it was mary foist...which I really eh whatever...Im going through the smae heart wrenching pain all over again but Im wrong. It can be compared to my friendship with will...ME AND WILL DONT FLIRT! HES DATING BRITTANY! AND EVEN WHEN HE WASNT...WE DONT FLIRT! its bullshit...its beeter off comparing me to what me and john were...until I found out him and Karen have been dating over a year...thats not good....::shiver::
But now with terry theres erin...stupid girl I work with and that he used to work with (now he works for a body shop) and I work with her thursday and shes gonna fucking never hear the end of my snide evil bitchiness..I cant touch her but I can make her feel like shit. stupid whore. oh were just friends...shes just a happy person...NO WHEN SHE FLIRTS WITH YOU AND YOU FLIRT BACK AND IM NOT AROUND AND YOU GET TOLD BY A FRIEND WHOS ALSO FRIENDS WITH ME, TERRY STOP FLIRTING...UH YEAH THATS FLIRTING...dont even try to not make it your fault...
So far in this relationship, I'm too dumb to understand, hes not gonna chase after me cause im not worth it, im retarded, i need to work out, im a liar I could go on and on...but lets just say I dont think much of myself at all anymore...all the confidence gained now gone. I got fatter. I went from 139(which was anorexic) to 165...I mean I dont wanna go back to looking sick...like a skeleton with skin pulled over it. I just wanna be like 150...average...
I just wanna be happy....
And I miss my dad like no other...I just wanna see him...but we always miss each others calls...my 20 to his 1...I cant help it I work 2-10...I never have time..
anyways brittany dalton and his friend cody are telling me I type too much so....later