It's going down, I'm yelling timber...
Woof. So I quit Lj idol. Which was coming, I'm sure. It's been a weird week for me. And now that I'm all in a reflecting on things mood, I've come to realize that I have this thing where I walk into situations expecting that they be fine and then they're not, they're kind of shitty. It's why I'm glad I'm marrying someone quite level-headed.
Last night we were watching a new show The Leftovers and there's this group of people who wear white and smoke and all live in this house. I must be tired/out of it/just being me because I did not realize that these people were in a cult. I was like oh that seems nice, they all wear the same thing and live there. Just a bunch of like minded people who have similar values. Later, Lacey called them a cult and I was like are they? I just though they were kindly chain smoking people. Haha. *hugs Millie* She'll keep me out of cults! I'm a sucker for free gruel.
Also with LJ Idol I didn't feel as though I could write about Hannek and stuff, and still get votes. I feel my best writing is when I write journal style, and that's not Hannek. So it was like either write so you can get votes or write Hannek. Which is a choice I wasn't particularly comfortable with, as Lacey likes when I write Hannek. And so do I. And it's to hard to build her back up as a character, I've been writing her for 9 years now. Best just to write her with Lacey playing the home game. *high fives*
It's a month before I'm moving the the US. I'm trying to get all the little things sorted out before I go so that I can get EI and health insurance and the like. Also I'm trying to pack all of my things. Apparently am going to ship some things and then uncle james will bring the rest but that means we need to see a broker or something. I don't know. I am feeling a lot of different feelings about this. It's hard, getting things ready for a move. Also I keep crying randomly because it's just such a big thing, this moving away from my family, not seeing them for months at a time.
Funny how something I've wanted for 5 years now has happened and it's a big mess of complicated feelings. Change is hard, even when you know you're headed on the right path.
Last night we were watching a new show The Leftovers and there's this group of people who wear white and smoke and all live in this house. I must be tired/out of it/just being me because I did not realize that these people were in a cult. I was like oh that seems nice, they all wear the same thing and live there. Just a bunch of like minded people who have similar values. Later, Lacey called them a cult and I was like are they? I just though they were kindly chain smoking people. Haha. *hugs Millie* She'll keep me out of cults! I'm a sucker for free gruel.
Also with LJ Idol I didn't feel as though I could write about Hannek and stuff, and still get votes. I feel my best writing is when I write journal style, and that's not Hannek. So it was like either write so you can get votes or write Hannek. Which is a choice I wasn't particularly comfortable with, as Lacey likes when I write Hannek. And so do I. And it's to hard to build her back up as a character, I've been writing her for 9 years now. Best just to write her with Lacey playing the home game. *high fives*
It's a month before I'm moving the the US. I'm trying to get all the little things sorted out before I go so that I can get EI and health insurance and the like. Also I'm trying to pack all of my things. Apparently am going to ship some things and then uncle james will bring the rest but that means we need to see a broker or something. I don't know. I am feeling a lot of different feelings about this. It's hard, getting things ready for a move. Also I keep crying randomly because it's just such a big thing, this moving away from my family, not seeing them for months at a time.
Funny how something I've wanted for 5 years now has happened and it's a big mess of complicated feelings. Change is hard, even when you know you're headed on the right path.