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Instead of an entry about Confession from the chair, I'm going to leave lj idol.
LJ Idol has taught me a few things. One of them is that I'm not a very good writer. I have a hard time getting out what I want to say and something that feels brilliant to me in my head usually comes out as a nonsensical sentence. I could work very hard on this and become a decent writer, I think. The ADHD means I have an incredibly difficult time settling down and focusing. That's okay, though. I'm pretty jazzed that I made it through 14 weeks of Lj Idol.
Another thing I learned is that I definitely let those polls drive me crazy. I don't know how people do this, I let my mood be dictated by my place in the polls and these days it's been not so good!
And of course the last time i was involved in something on lj I was unemployed and had all the time in the world to focus on it and build relationships with people. This time not so much. It's been hard to feel connected, I guess I just never settled in and felt comfortable commenting or carrying on a conversation. The entire thing felt awkward and often like I was commenting to nobody, which was odd. I figure it must be because there are so many people commenting and that sometimes you just have nothing to say to someone. I know I really struggled with commenting and reading people's entries. It has all just petered out.
One of the things I'm really happy that Idol has done for me is it has gotten me back in the habit of writing. When I write, I write with Lacey and it makes her happy. So Idol has helped me make my fiancée happier. And there's a lot of stuff going on with the stuff we write about now. If I only have time to write one thing a week, I want it to be with her. She's my biggest fan when it comes to my writing, which I appreciate more now that I've let complete strangers read my stuff. I think we'll both be playing the home game.
When I started LJ Idol I wanted to do something creative, to wake up that part of my brain and rediscover some creativity in my life. I feel as though I've done that, though as always, if I had more time and had been more disciplined then I could have done better. What is it my counselor is always cautioning me? Oh that's right, not to be too harsh with myself. I think I did well, and I'm proud of myself. Now off to the next adventure. Thanks everyone for reading and commenting over the past few months. I really appreciate it!
LJ Idol has taught me a few things. One of them is that I'm not a very good writer. I have a hard time getting out what I want to say and something that feels brilliant to me in my head usually comes out as a nonsensical sentence. I could work very hard on this and become a decent writer, I think. The ADHD means I have an incredibly difficult time settling down and focusing. That's okay, though. I'm pretty jazzed that I made it through 14 weeks of Lj Idol.
Another thing I learned is that I definitely let those polls drive me crazy. I don't know how people do this, I let my mood be dictated by my place in the polls and these days it's been not so good!
And of course the last time i was involved in something on lj I was unemployed and had all the time in the world to focus on it and build relationships with people. This time not so much. It's been hard to feel connected, I guess I just never settled in and felt comfortable commenting or carrying on a conversation. The entire thing felt awkward and often like I was commenting to nobody, which was odd. I figure it must be because there are so many people commenting and that sometimes you just have nothing to say to someone. I know I really struggled with commenting and reading people's entries. It has all just petered out.
One of the things I'm really happy that Idol has done for me is it has gotten me back in the habit of writing. When I write, I write with Lacey and it makes her happy. So Idol has helped me make my fiancée happier. And there's a lot of stuff going on with the stuff we write about now. If I only have time to write one thing a week, I want it to be with her. She's my biggest fan when it comes to my writing, which I appreciate more now that I've let complete strangers read my stuff. I think we'll both be playing the home game.
When I started LJ Idol I wanted to do something creative, to wake up that part of my brain and rediscover some creativity in my life. I feel as though I've done that, though as always, if I had more time and had been more disciplined then I could have done better. What is it my counselor is always cautioning me? Oh that's right, not to be too harsh with myself. I think I did well, and I'm proud of myself. Now off to the next adventure. Thanks everyone for reading and commenting over the past few months. I really appreciate it!