Innocence is a term that describes the lack of guilt of an individual
The Basics
Name: Alice
Age: 18
You
1. Describe your personality:
I warn you now, that this is more like my life story.I have always excelled at school, yet have always had such an unhealthy relationship with schooling.From an extremely young age I found it very repetitve,boring and unchallenging.Many people have expressed concern at my wish to not go to University, yet I can't help but see the good points of not attending.The art school I will be going to is much like a University anyway, situated in London.I have always enjoyed being in London as I very much like being in the centre of a city lifestyle.I live just outside London at the moment, a very annoying distance away from the city.
I can't help but think that where I have grown up and lived all my life is the reason behind my somewhat cynical and sometimes arrogant personality.In short, where I live is terrible.Grey skies, poor job prospects, awful and stupid people.I however am confident in saying that it has also made me the ambitious person that I am.For I long to get the hell out of this place.
I generally enjoy being slightly odd.Well, what would be classed as odd and different by the sheep around me.I read as much as I can and have about ten books on the go at the moment.My passion at the moment is French literature, which is strange as I have never been one for European literature/culture/history.I have been told that I am very good at charming people, whether that's a good or bad thing i'm not too sure.Especially seeing as to me, when I am told so by someone, it's as if they think I have somehow manipulated them.I can be a very
selfish and cruel person at times, but I want to stress that I do not actively set out to hurt or humilate people.My brain is always turned on at full power, and I sometimes lose control over my mouth.I always feel as if I should get my opinion across whether it is accepted or not.
2. What are your flaws?
Having ridiculously high standards as I do proves a problem.A lot of the time even I can't satisfy my own standards, so it is very difficult for other people to do so.Whilst I can accept that someone has done their best I always expect a level of work from someone else of which I could achieve myself.Which does make me rather frustrated, leaving me to become very angry with people often for no good reason.
I am a complete perfectionist. I believe that anything less then what I consider to be perfect,is completely unacceptable. Which,yes in a sense is a good thing as it can drive you to do your very best. However,it can deeply hinder you as well. As I have found out on numerous occasions.It also makes me appear to have a rather large ego and come across as arrogant.Which I know are bad traits, but do not necessarily bother me.
I am also extremely self-destructive. Sometimes when a piece of work isn't up the the standard I intended,I will gladly rip it to shreds rather than give it in despite the amount of time spent on it.This obviously relates to the perfectionism as well.If one little thing is wrong with something I usually act as if it's the end of the world.
I also have very much two sides to my personality.One that everyone sees,and one that well...people would be horrified to know about.Which is probably the real me.I am selfish,sadistic and vulgar.Which I have come to terms with but will never admit to anyone else.Infact I become deeply offended if it's even suggested.Everything I say seems to be laced with sarcasm, so a lot of people don't really know where they stand with me.
I cannot stand being lead my someone who is unwilling to get the task done to a high standard.I myself have high standards and feel that if I am not the one taking lead everything will be one big mess.I suppose that could suggest I have a rather controlling personality but I am honestly the majority of the time surrounded by people who just are not as...capable as myself.It frustrates me as I like to get things done well.If we do it my way,we as a group will succeed and everyones happy.However as I said before that can piss some people off as it comes across that I am dismissing their ideas and input.Which I am.
3. What are your best points?
I am completely independent.I can get things done and sorted on my own,as well as to a high standard.I am intelligent,creative and inventive so a lot of the time I don't actually have to put much time or effort into something for it to look good.Work in that respect comes very easy to me.However (this should really be put in my weaknesses section),I often act stubborn and irrationally towards receiving any help, even though it might be the more intelligent option.
I would class myself as intelligent as I said before, and can come up with decisions or plans on the spot.I am a very quick thinker in that respect, my mind is always turned on.I have a very persistent and determined personality.If I have an idea, I will make sure I see it through until the end.Even if it's wrong (which I then probably wouldn't admit to anyway.) So in that respect I am also quite ambitious, I like to push the boundries.I therefore I have a very open minded and progressive outlook on life, and will try anything.I will speak my opinions even if they offend.
4. Likes:
The smell of smoke and petrol,cult films,cancelled lessons,mahjong,hair spray,asian films,youtube,art,travelling into London,christmas,reading,washing blood off in the rain(no,really...),hot chocolate,rain,getting packages in the mail,debates,sleep,listening to and playing music obnoxiously loud,having money,phoenix wright,french literature,arguments
5. Dislikes:
When someone doesn't hold the door open for you but could obviously see you coming,People who act idiotic on purpose,chronic liars,extreme religion,those with extremely close minds,being talked to in a condescending tone,losing/misplacing things,rudeness,queues,losing to someone else,the underground/subway
6. What are your hobbies and talents?
reading,seeing live music,drawing/painting
7. How do others perceive you?
People seem to appreciate my ability to learn with ease, but their responses to it usually come in form of friendly sarcasm.An example being "Oh how can you do that so easy, I hate you so much".Friends have come to terms with the fact that I am honest, blunt and opinionated.
I'm assuming they appreciate it as I am then willing to defend them at all costs if they are an innocent party in an argument or another similar situation.Linked very heavily to my first point is that I am a very hard worker.Though that does stem from the fact I am an extreme perfectionist which I class as a bad thing considering the degree and standard that I consider even acceptable.
I really only become interested in something if it directly effects me in a positive way or if I am already personally interested in the matter in the first place.I take out my anger and stress on the nearest person to me.Though it's also the level of hurt I inflict when I let out my anger on said person that is obviously not a good thing.I am very,very cruel and extremely vulgar.I've been told that it's actually my unwillingness to apolagise or recognise that I was wrong afterwards is, if more, irritating.I find slight joy in acting cruelly or sadistic towards people, even friends.So of course, those apparent friends do not look so kindly on such behaviour from me.Though I really do not care, which of course upsets them more.I am completely unwilling to change that part of me.I can be extremely moody also, as in "Bother me and i'll snap you in half".
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8. What is your personal motto?
I don't think I really have a personal motto as my actions are usually based on the best course of action at that particular moment.If I had to choose, I would probably say something such as 'Not to let anyone control you'.Be yourself, be your own person and do what you believe to be right.
9. What is your favorite color? Why?
Both green and black together.I really don't know why I adore green as much as I do, I am just always attracted to anything green.It really has nothing to do with nature or something to that effect.Black I believe to be an amazing colour to wear, and thats really the extent of that.
10. What color do you think you are? (it can be the favourite color or another color)
Diffcult, as I am so very tempted to not say black as I am aware of the general 'evil' connotations.Oh ok, i'll say black.I find black to be a very elegant and sleak colour, something I feel I do project.It has depth yet is somewhat suffocating.Plus it can also be misunderstood.I would say it also does mirror my stress and somewhat despressed filled personality.
11. Favourite Animal?
I really cannot resist a small,fluffy and cute animal.I would say rabbits are my favourite animal, yet I love wolves,bats and squirrels almost as much.
12. What is your favorite season?
I hate hate hate summer.I wear a lot of black, due to it really being the only colour of clothing I do own, and always find summer deeply uncomfortable.It also makes my hair flop which is deeply unattractive.I would say my favourite season would be a toss up between Autumn and Winter.Possibly the period where Autumn is leading into Winter.I love Autumn as the colours are amazing and the atmosphere is generally fresh.Winter I adore as I am a complete sucker for Christmas and everyone is just so excited.
13. This Thing, That Thing
Optimistic or Pessimistic or Realist: Very pessimistic.
Possessions or Ideals: I can be deeply materialistic, but that is when I consider the other option of the majority of the people I know.
When consdering the select few people who I care deeply
about, I would always say ideals.As my love and drive to put them above anything else doesn't even come close to any sort of material possesion.
Mature or Immature: Mature.
Leader or Follower: Always a leader.
Light or Dark: I work a lot better at night, so i would say dark.
Think Before You Leap? or Leap!: Think before you leap.Hell,sit down and draw a goddamn diagram before you leap...
Introverted or Extroverted: Extroverted.
War or Peace: Well, surely no one actually wants war.Picking it would be absolutely ridiculous.However, I feel it pretty obvious that there always be war.Despite that,peace of course.
Secretive or Open: I enjoy being generally open but there is of course things I would never tel certain people and I would want to retain that right to keep secrets.So, secretive.
High, Medium, Low Energy? Medium.
14. Reactions
How do you react when with your friends?
Close friends? Much more open and relaxed, yet I can't help but retain a sense of competition.
How about your family? Again, relatively calmly.I would say I act the same with my family as I do with my friends, yet there always seems to be a lot more verbal fights with my family.By that, I mean really angry ones though.I do love my family, but they drive me insane.
And I do not say that lightly.Really, they do not know when to stop being stupid and to leave me alone.
In a group? I usually have to be at the head of a group and retain some leader status.Other then that, again I would act the same as I put in the two questions before.
If your peers/friends/family were in trouble, what would you do? Help them as best I can, if they wanted my help of course.I do believe that people should learn to get themselves out of trouble though.It's all a learning process.But yes, as I said before I would always be there if they were in any trouble and needed me.Especially if their lives were at risk.
How do you react to Stressful things? Well stress is actually my default setting, so I am usually in stress reaction mode.I become very short tempered and the nearest person to me takes the brunt of my frsutrations. I become more hurtful, as in verbally, as well as vulgar and loud.I end up throwing whatever I am holding.My art work usually gets me stressed out so I throw my pencils/paint brushes and usually screw/rip up whatever I have done.
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15. What are your dreams?
To be financially secure so I can indulge myself in some travelling which I have been dying to do for years.I want an amazing job that I can see myself doing until I retire, something that I can enjoy and that makes waking up in the morning worth while.Possibly settle down, though I am not actively looking for love right now.
16. What are your fears?
I'm somewhat fearful of the start of the new University year as it simply will not apply to me.Despite hating public education since a young age, I havn't known any different. So whilst everyone I know is carrying on into higher education I have to sort out my adult life.I fear this slightly as I am the sort of person who cannot stand doing something that I do not enjoy, so I am scared that I will end up in a job that I hate.Which leads on to the fact that I am scared that I will waste my talents and intellect.I have so much potential and could do some amazing things.I just don't know where to go from here on out.I don't know how to reach that point.
17. Would you do something you wouldn’t normally do if you had to?
That depends on how far it is away from what I would consider normal as well as the possible consequences if I didn't do it.So, my answer would be that I would with hold judgement until
a situation like that arises.
18. If you had to choose a side, would you choose the government, rebels or just being a loner?
Whilst I may be a better person when surrounded by other people, I believe I work better alone so I would say loner.
19. Anything else about you?
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20. Anything else you would like to add?
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