ANGRY.
angry that it took so long for me to realize
that money and funds are very nice, but not absolute.
I'm pissed that you broke my favorite piece of 3-D art twice.
I found a way to laugh at it the first time but again? come on. it's particles now. IT SUCKS.
He felt bad about the first time, but now it's almost okay. He went into the other room to smoke.. even though I asked for a smoke too. Or I thought I had. I must be an idiot to not know how wrong life feels... all of the time. This city is sick and murderers get away all the time. I'm afraid it may have been a mistake to come here. And people who I one valued much... they take his side, it's like a gender war, but I can't handle that. It's fucking ridiculous. I hate ANYONE who thinks they're smart and still makes someone eat cat food (mistaken for cheerios). It's especially not funny to me since that sort of joke would kill me instantly. FEEDING PEOPLE THINGS OTHER THAN WHAT THEY INTEND TO CONSUME WILL NEVER EVER BE FUNNY TO ME. It pisses me off big time... stories like this being portrayed and some infantile comedy segment. NOT FUNNY. FUCK YOU.
I feel increasingly unhappy with myself and my life. I wish I were strong, confident, and brave enough to still stay single. No one deserves me. I'm sorry, but they don't. I see no proof. I'm the most caring, loving, passionate person anyone could hope to find in a lifetime. Yet I treat myself as much less.... I will never deny that all of my problems are my own and of my own creation. I know that... but I could do better on my own at this time... but I guess I'm also too stubborn to do that. I love too much and trust too much. That's it.
I love my frog. He can eat a whole bunch of crickets when he wants to. And he's fun. And I think Twitter is a waste of space and hope that the fad attached to it moves on to better things very soon.
I had a long and thoughtful shower today..... it took hours to clean the apartment after it had flooded a few inches high. I tried my best to scoop up all electronics and such. I could have lost my only computer!!! Then what would I do? Oh, probably a lot.
I sort of wish I had nothing and no one to rely on... I think I'd get more done. But for now I'm a stupid lazy alcoholic with no ambition and trust me.... I do very much hate myself for that.
All-in-all, I believe I should wrap this up.
I'm speaking too freely, if that's possible.
I am too angry to communicate my problems and tentative solutions.
I will drop it now.
I'm so sorry if you actually read this. I'm sure I will regret (or delete) this later.
that money and funds are very nice, but not absolute.
I'm pissed that you broke my favorite piece of 3-D art twice.
I found a way to laugh at it the first time but again? come on. it's particles now. IT SUCKS.
He felt bad about the first time, but now it's almost okay. He went into the other room to smoke.. even though I asked for a smoke too. Or I thought I had. I must be an idiot to not know how wrong life feels... all of the time. This city is sick and murderers get away all the time. I'm afraid it may have been a mistake to come here. And people who I one valued much... they take his side, it's like a gender war, but I can't handle that. It's fucking ridiculous. I hate ANYONE who thinks they're smart and still makes someone eat cat food (mistaken for cheerios). It's especially not funny to me since that sort of joke would kill me instantly. FEEDING PEOPLE THINGS OTHER THAN WHAT THEY INTEND TO CONSUME WILL NEVER EVER BE FUNNY TO ME. It pisses me off big time... stories like this being portrayed and some infantile comedy segment. NOT FUNNY. FUCK YOU.
I feel increasingly unhappy with myself and my life. I wish I were strong, confident, and brave enough to still stay single. No one deserves me. I'm sorry, but they don't. I see no proof. I'm the most caring, loving, passionate person anyone could hope to find in a lifetime. Yet I treat myself as much less.... I will never deny that all of my problems are my own and of my own creation. I know that... but I could do better on my own at this time... but I guess I'm also too stubborn to do that. I love too much and trust too much. That's it.
I love my frog. He can eat a whole bunch of crickets when he wants to. And he's fun. And I think Twitter is a waste of space and hope that the fad attached to it moves on to better things very soon.
I had a long and thoughtful shower today..... it took hours to clean the apartment after it had flooded a few inches high. I tried my best to scoop up all electronics and such. I could have lost my only computer!!! Then what would I do? Oh, probably a lot.
I sort of wish I had nothing and no one to rely on... I think I'd get more done. But for now I'm a stupid lazy alcoholic with no ambition and trust me.... I do very much hate myself for that.
All-in-all, I believe I should wrap this up.
I'm speaking too freely, if that's possible.
I am too angry to communicate my problems and tentative solutions.
I will drop it now.
I'm so sorry if you actually read this. I'm sure I will regret (or delete) this later.