Selfish
Say something,
I'm giving up on you.
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Love is selfless and selfless love is difficult.
I am confused and I want to stop pretending. I want to be honest but I don't know how. I want to be selfless but I end up jealous but I will never ever admit it. I want to find someone else. Someone else. But I am happiest with you. My, oh my. Meet me half way. I wonder if it's obvious. I wonder if you feel something. I wonder if I will ever move on but I know I will someday just like I always have. I need something else to get in the way. Someone else. I don't know what to feel if you find someone first. I'm waiting for someone else to sweep me off my feet. I wonder what I can do that won't remind me of you. Dance. Sing. Get stronger. Pray. Surrender. Disappear. Sever.
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1 Corinthians 13:4-6.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
I am lacking and imperfect in so many ways but I hope some day to be able to give true love. Only by His unending grace.
Please please remember this line, self. Sing -
Find rest, my soul, in Christ alone.