081209 is a stupid day
my dear, you left with only 47 days. i would say it's only 47 days because times fly very fast now. you wont want to believe that it will be already left with only 28 days if you didn't realise and take note of date and days. it would be so fast that you won't even have time to prepare. well maybe. people might think that it's just 2 week away and for the whole 5 months, will always be away every week. and therefore, will always be here with me for only thrice a week. it's lesser and lesser for us to meet now. on the other hand, i'm glad that i will be having holiday and spend my holiday, working. because during the school month, i will always meet up with my baby every day. even if i end in the afternoon and by then will be at our home area later, i will still meet up with him. because every minute and every seconds counts, cause for sure, i will start missing him at night before tucking in. if i work, i can at least have something else to do. i'm happy at the same time because it's like finally his serving the nation after the long and draggy wait. but then again, i'm sad because i won't be seeing him often. sigh. and now, like right now in my room, sitting right in front of the comp, typing this, suddenly i remembered something. the other day, i wore heels and i was so tired and painful of the long walked we had. i sat at one place and made a sulking face. i looked up at my baby. he look so cute. he look so lost and don't know what to do. i looked up at him and i can tell he was questioning himself like 'what should i do now...shit' and that's so cute. i giggled inside. and after that he tried to console me and told me to continue to walk because we are reaching. he look so cute the other day because he really don't know what to do. and on some day went we walked around in cathay, we went inside a store. i saw a notebook with a rabbit on the cover with some text saying 'and you are my carrot.' it was cute, of course. i told my baby that i'm the rabbit and he will be the carrot. and this is what he responded, 'ape ey carrot. macam takde pape seh.' haha. sigh. some days. love reminiscing the times we had before when we were sooo closed. now, we are getting there. to be close like before. but this stupid ns motherfucker thing just get in the way. we can never do anything. i mean, in the end, he will have to serve the nation. and i guess, this is the time. baby baby baby, don't worry but things will get fine. i'm sure we can pull this through. there will always be some obstacles in relationship. and this is one of them. i love you, baby. and i will always do.