I had a dream my father was alive, and I guess we had a very uncooperative relationship, and he had tattoos on his foot. I was like wtf Dad, since when have you had tattoos? And they were the symbols of various sports teams. And he tried to GIVE THEM to me. He told me to take them. But I didn't want them ( Read more... )

Everyone! PAY ATTENTION!!!!
I am participating in the Relay For Life at Sage.
Most of you know that my father died unexpectedly of cancer last November. My aunt also died from cancer last year.
Please help the American Cancer Society and the Relay For Life by donating at my Donation Page.
♥♥♥

( Mike and the Mechanics - The Living Years )

My roommate left the light on AND the window open. Not only is she killing polar bears, but my room is now FULL of insects. I hope they give her West Nile because I'M BEING EATEN ALIVE BY FLYING CREATURES right now. Fucker! [EDIT: I whined at her for it when she came in!]

I just saw 28 Days finally. Maybe my dad'll be happier now. IDK why he ( Read more... )

So last night Heather calls me whining and moaning that she woke up with sharp abdominal pains and that the doctor says it is either appendicitis or a cyst, and that they don't want to send her for a CAT scan coz that's just a lot of extra radiation the body doesn't need, so to wait a few hours and if she was vomiting to go to the hospital. She ( Read more... )

I love how my friends discuss my apparent mood disorder? I'm sorry but I don't think I'm bi-polar. I think I'm a female, teenage college student ( Read more... )

So I had this dream that my dad was visiting me (coz I was having a one-sided conversation with my father before I fell asleep last night), and at one point he was sitting zazen with Pikachu. And apparently Pikachu had been dead as well, and it was the deep breathing that killed Pikachu... and he re-died in front of me. Ever see Pikachu wearing a ( Read more... )

fe amarga: find anything to eat yet ( Read more... )

I noticed yesterday that I think I have my father's sight for things. I was outside and noticed the way the light fell on a bare tree down the road and made it golden, and thought how pretty it was, and that that's the thing my dad would point out to me. So, though I tear up whenever I think of my dad being gone, I know that he's a part of me ( Read more... )

I may sound like a bad person for doing it, but I logged into my dad's email account, you know, so it doesn't get deleted or whatever Yahoo does to inactive accounts.
I decided to read his "SENT" folder.
He sent out a lot of philosophical emails before he went into the hospital.
I like the one chain of emails my dad and I had:

Dad: I'M BEGINNING ( Read more... )