my thinking in the moment
it's a nice day outside. I like how yesterday Bethany and I had to reschedule taking my senior pictures because it was raining, and then today it is just great outside.
I'm kind of in a yucky mood. Soccer practice got cancelled and I still have yet to find out why so I just feel like the rhythm of my day has been set off and I'm not sure what to do with myself. I could probably clean my room and I'm sure I'll do just that in a little bit.
I miss a lot of things that used to be. I feel like I've become kind of distant and I myself have made it that way. Not sure what to do to get back, and that's exactly where the enemy wants me to be: uncertain and fairly apathetic. I'll have to put in some extra effort to get back. I am such a slacker in that area. Hmm.
I'm kind of confused about a boy. Talking with him can sometimes be frustrating because I feel like he's not even interested in talking to me and he makes empty efforts in this friendship. I know it's just a friendship right now and even in such a case you put effort into it. Ugh. I don't know how to loosen my grip without giving up.
I'm kind of in a yucky mood. Soccer practice got cancelled and I still have yet to find out why so I just feel like the rhythm of my day has been set off and I'm not sure what to do with myself. I could probably clean my room and I'm sure I'll do just that in a little bit.
I miss a lot of things that used to be. I feel like I've become kind of distant and I myself have made it that way. Not sure what to do to get back, and that's exactly where the enemy wants me to be: uncertain and fairly apathetic. I'll have to put in some extra effort to get back. I am such a slacker in that area. Hmm.
I'm kind of confused about a boy. Talking with him can sometimes be frustrating because I feel like he's not even interested in talking to me and he makes empty efforts in this friendship. I know it's just a friendship right now and even in such a case you put effort into it. Ugh. I don't know how to loosen my grip without giving up.