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With no snow on the ground this is turning out to be the worst Christmas ever, but that's not really my problem. My problem is my mom has been in the ICU of the Civic Hospital since Monday and she's not getting any better. Originally she was fine, she was just having an operation to help with her Crohn's disease. They were going to remove a piece of her intestine and she'd be fine and home for Christmas. A lot has changed since Monday. After her operation she seemed fine, I spoke to her on the phone Tuesday night. Said I loved her and I'd see her soon and went on the art field trip the next day.
Upon returning from the field trip my dad phoned my cell and told me she was going back into surgery. There was a hole in her large intestine and it was leaking. When I saw my dad next he was very serious. I didn't realize the gravity of the situation until I went to see her on Friday. The second operate was fine, they patched up the whole, but the leak had caused a critical infection that put her whole body at risk. She went into septic shock. Her lungs are currently filled with liquid and she's breathing 60% oxygen through a tube. She's got more tubes stuck in her than I can count. She's heavily sedated. When I went on Friday they said she condition was improving and she'd make a full recovery in a few weeks. Again that has changed.
It's now Sunday and she has not improved since I last saw her. The doctors fear she has yet another infection, but they don't know where. Her body is already in critical condition. I don't know how much more of this I can take. I know I'm hard on her sometimes, but I love my mom. She makes mistakes just like anyone else. I don't know if she's going to get better. My dad's not in the best state and all my brother can think about is presents. I can't visit her because I'm too busy working and then taking care of Hunter so my dad can visit her. I feel so alone right now.
And that's why this is shaping up to be the worst Christmas ever. There's not going to be Christmas dinner, no family opening of the presents, no Christmas party at Grandpa's. But none of that really matter because all I want is my mom to be ok.
And I'm sorry for being a downer, I just had to get that out. I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and enjoy the holidays.
Upon returning from the field trip my dad phoned my cell and told me she was going back into surgery. There was a hole in her large intestine and it was leaking. When I saw my dad next he was very serious. I didn't realize the gravity of the situation until I went to see her on Friday. The second operate was fine, they patched up the whole, but the leak had caused a critical infection that put her whole body at risk. She went into septic shock. Her lungs are currently filled with liquid and she's breathing 60% oxygen through a tube. She's got more tubes stuck in her than I can count. She's heavily sedated. When I went on Friday they said she condition was improving and she'd make a full recovery in a few weeks. Again that has changed.
It's now Sunday and she has not improved since I last saw her. The doctors fear she has yet another infection, but they don't know where. Her body is already in critical condition. I don't know how much more of this I can take. I know I'm hard on her sometimes, but I love my mom. She makes mistakes just like anyone else. I don't know if she's going to get better. My dad's not in the best state and all my brother can think about is presents. I can't visit her because I'm too busy working and then taking care of Hunter so my dad can visit her. I feel so alone right now.
And that's why this is shaping up to be the worst Christmas ever. There's not going to be Christmas dinner, no family opening of the presents, no Christmas party at Grandpa's. But none of that really matter because all I want is my mom to be ok.
And I'm sorry for being a downer, I just had to get that out. I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and enjoy the holidays.