Analysis:)

[rapturicsoul]

So far my classes are going ok. I hate the one class, the fuckin statistics class. DAMN THAT CLASS! haha. So, yeh I am in my clean ass room, that took me all last nite to clean. I am still trying to figure out what I wanna do, like where I wanna put stuff and what not. WOW I have not added much entry in this bitch for awhile. I am still in that apartment that I had over the summer. I KNOW< ITS THE SHIZNIT:) I love it. I am still in debate of what law school I want to go to. I am getting pissed off at my family, because they wanna tell me where I am going. I believe it's my choice, last time I checked. They also tell people what law I wanna go for. This is shit:) I already told them that they will see me for christmas. I am not doing another fucking family function. I can hang with my mom, which is cool, but NO MORE FAMILY FUN! It's more like family drama, that I get shitted on, and it makes me feel lousy, even though it don't pertain to me. I wish adults would act like fucking adults. Oh well. I have so much shit on my mind right now, its unreal. I have so much on my plate thats at stake. Sometimes I just wanna say fuck it, and fuck everything, as long as I have my two cats, my music, videos and my friends. I am also reconsidering the type of law I wanna partake in. Criminal law has been peeking my interest lately, mostly Special Victims law, pertaining to rape/molestation/ect. GOD I HAVE TO STOP WATCHING LAW AND ORDER! DAMN I AM ADDICTED! Lately I feel like I am being monitored/watched, and people are waiting for me to fall/fail. I have to go to Walmart for some shiznit. BLAH! This is all jumbled up but fuck it! haha. I am tired of feeling that my feelings for a particular sex is wrong. I don't think it's wrong, and lately I have been wanting to act upon my urges. Oh well. I am just ready to tell my family, which most of them know I am gay, that "I FUCK MEN! I SUCK MEN! DEAL WITH THE FUCKING SHIT AND STOP FUCKING ASKING ME IF I WANNA BE HOOKED UP WITH A FUCKING GIRL OR IF I LOVE EATING PUSSY (MY bro tends to use this "tact" " lol.

Song that is playing now states my feelings in a nutshell:
Whoooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa OHhhhhhh
I hate the treadmill everyday
I hate the mundain things they say
The boredom sets in 9-5,
At night thats when I come alive

I long to be connected,
I long to be affected
The bright lights beacon me,
Becon me to you

I like it when we go to extremes
I like it when you enter my dreams
I like it when I feel your touch
I like it, I like it so much

There must be more to life then this
This life I surely will not miss
to spend my time waiting in line,
To search for some grand design
I long to be connected,
I long to be affected
The bright lights beacon me, beacon me to you...

I like it when we go to extremes
I like it when you enter my dreams
I like it when I feel you touch
I like it, I like it so much