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Nothing much is going on here...just anxious for later on today. Jean and Kyle wanted to go riding, so I offered them to come over since I was off. Hopefully, with Jeans help, we might get Chris to come over as well. My parents were not to happy when I asked them to stay out from 3-7. They were like "do we embarrass you?" I staright out said "yes at times. I just dont want you to embarass me in front of my friend/manager and I dont want him to embarass me in front of you." Dad said he will only do it this once. Thats fine by me...thats all I ask. But they will do it again for my birthday party....Im trying to make it a day where Chris is off and Richard closes the next day as well as Brian. I want to celebrate my 22nd birthday as if it was my 21st since I didnt really celebrate it. Other than that, I have "adopted" a boyfriend. Its kinda weird as we are not going out, but we treat each other as if we were. Both of us have been single for some time that we decided to "adopt" each other to see if we really are up to it. If thats too technical for you...then we have become close friends to where you think we are dating. I do not actually consider myself dating last year with the psycho as it lasted a week....and we did what? watch a movie and kissed maybe twice. Woo Hoo, what a relationship that was! So I am just gonna say that we didnt date yet we did. So anyways, we are close but we cant be caught together...and it sucks too! He works later than me normally and I am rarely off at the same time...but otherwise, we try to see each other as much as possible. I guess you can say he is a "friend with benefits" and that means NO SEX in there. I have been single for almost....4 years now and he has been for like...7yrs so its been a while for us both. I am very picky with my man (obviously) as he is about his woman. I am not exactly his type as he is not mine. We match in personality mainly as we act like half our age...well, he does as I act about 3 times my age. We are basically outcasts because of this as well I am a much more aggressive than a normal woman. So we decided to "adopt" each other. Its been so long since we remembered how we were treated so we decided to do this. The part with benefits is the fact we have freedom so we dont feel possesive over each other (like what/where we can/cant do/go), its not "breaking up" or "cheating" if we find someone else that we can truly love and want to be with...this is just a trial to see if we really do want to be with someone or if we want to stay single. Thus said, we can say when we had enough and not be heart broken when the trial is up. Honestly, I think this trial might work out for us...and that was what HE actually intended. We are basically wanting to see if WE can make it work before we make the call of dating and if not, see how much we can put up with each other and be ready for someone else. So, I had my eyes on two guys...now I am going to see if I can make this trial work for us, or if it will help me work for the other guy I like. If both guys asked me out on the same day, I wouldnt know who to choose...but this "adoption" should be able to help me choose which lifestyle I can actually get along with as Guy A is a kid at heart with a sweet personality and has more things in common with me while Guy B likes woman who dont like to count on her man too much for many things, says he is high maintainence and preferred someone the same way, and doesnt like to be "smothered" in affection (neither do I). Its a toss up, but I know going with Guy A may calm me down more rather than being hyper and aggressive while Guy B would rather have me the way I am now. Lets see what will work.