"I'd thought what I'd do was, I'd pretend I was one of those deaf-mutes."
hello people. Uhh yeah, so for some odd reason I am feeling quite uneasy today. I feel like their is nothing to calm my mind. You see it just feels like there is nothing I can do to change my life. I damn near had a panic attack earlier for several reasons I don't like to talk about. My heart is racing just thinking about it. Anyway, Yeah the subject title is a line from catcher in the rye. I don't know I just feel like I want to run away from every thing or something. Wow, I can't make anything ever work, I sure am a difficult fuck-up.
Where was I? So anyway, I either feel like sleeping all the time or not able to sleep I fucking hate polar opposites.
I can feel myself actually losing my own mind, it is a terrifying feeling. Yeah I just wrote like two sentences and they made no sense, almost the ravings of a madman. Whatever, my life is fucked. I need to find my head is up my ass for sure. I'm missing something in my life, it is fucked up. Everybody seems so bloody content and I am almost envious if them. I am just sick of everybody doing so fucking well and no matter how hard I try, I seem to fuck it all up. Well, tomorrow is another day. Another Day of being spiteful and driving myself insane because I am fucking sick of being so damned lonely. Ugh, I am sorry I'll try and cheer up I just have to learn to put up with everything that happens to me.
Where was I? So anyway, I either feel like sleeping all the time or not able to sleep I fucking hate polar opposites.
I can feel myself actually losing my own mind, it is a terrifying feeling. Yeah I just wrote like two sentences and they made no sense, almost the ravings of a madman. Whatever, my life is fucked. I need to find my head is up my ass for sure. I'm missing something in my life, it is fucked up. Everybody seems so bloody content and I am almost envious if them. I am just sick of everybody doing so fucking well and no matter how hard I try, I seem to fuck it all up. Well, tomorrow is another day. Another Day of being spiteful and driving myself insane because I am fucking sick of being so damned lonely. Ugh, I am sorry I'll try and cheer up I just have to learn to put up with everything that happens to me.