fate is cruel
why is it that just when you believe you are over your attraction to someone, you run into them and you turn dumb?
I had this all-consuming crush on my co-worker Eric in 2004. At the time, he worked the graveyard shift with me. We'd sit and talk for hours on just about anything. It was freaking fantastic. He is intelligent and witty, and oh so easy on the eyes. It's difficult to put into words the connection I felt to him.
I thought we had something going, until I found out he was dating April, a friend of mine. Even while he was dating her, we all hung out as friends. April told me it made her uncomfortable that Eric and I could sit and banter over things and leave her out (unintentionally). They were dating on/off until the summer hurricanes came and April became pregnant.
I haven't seen Eric in almost a year. I visited their apartment once their son Brenden was born, but I haven't spoken to either much since. We all work different hours now.
Today I stopped by my mom's CVS pharmacy to pick up boxes and I literally ran into Eric, head-on. He told me how he'd heard I was moving and how I'd hafta stop by and hang out with them before I leave.
It hit me like a ton of bricks that as I was standing there talking to him (looking all scroungy), I still had a massive crush on him. I'd like to be able to call them up so we could all go out some night before I leave, but I don't know if I could handle it.
What it all boils down to is this: I'm moving to NE in 5 weeks. I have this wild urge to call him/ see him and confess my crush on him. I don't see as how it could hurt, considering I'll probably never see him again. I might get closure from it. The other part of me naturally wants to let it go and walk away, not contacting or seeing them before I leave.
I had this all-consuming crush on my co-worker Eric in 2004. At the time, he worked the graveyard shift with me. We'd sit and talk for hours on just about anything. It was freaking fantastic. He is intelligent and witty, and oh so easy on the eyes. It's difficult to put into words the connection I felt to him.
I thought we had something going, until I found out he was dating April, a friend of mine. Even while he was dating her, we all hung out as friends. April told me it made her uncomfortable that Eric and I could sit and banter over things and leave her out (unintentionally). They were dating on/off until the summer hurricanes came and April became pregnant.
I haven't seen Eric in almost a year. I visited their apartment once their son Brenden was born, but I haven't spoken to either much since. We all work different hours now.
Today I stopped by my mom's CVS pharmacy to pick up boxes and I literally ran into Eric, head-on. He told me how he'd heard I was moving and how I'd hafta stop by and hang out with them before I leave.
It hit me like a ton of bricks that as I was standing there talking to him (looking all scroungy), I still had a massive crush on him. I'd like to be able to call them up so we could all go out some night before I leave, but I don't know if I could handle it.
What it all boils down to is this: I'm moving to NE in 5 weeks. I have this wild urge to call him/ see him and confess my crush on him. I don't see as how it could hurt, considering I'll probably never see him again. I might get closure from it. The other part of me naturally wants to let it go and walk away, not contacting or seeing them before I leave.