its just the way it is
i love stephen fry!!
i got to see him twice last night, on millionaire and parky. i just think he's great, hes so clever and funny and just brilliant!
i miss my girl terribly much, but im sure noone needs me to tell them that or for me to say anymore.
i've been really stupid lately, well not just lately, forever. maybe i've spent too long by myself and have let myself get into stupid cycles. i don't really know, but i do know that i need to stop it, i feel so ridiculous, and highly embarassed and ashamed. no wonder i never used to speak to anyone, i was too embarassed to tell them about the real me. the stupid things i do and think. i want to cut it out now, so its not part of me anymore, i cant carry on like this, i'll only end up with people not liking me or being pushed away. im scared of being like this forever, i hate it.
i feel really frustrated with some things at the moment, well i have done for a long time now. im too tired to sit and write it all down now, it wouldn't do any good anyway, things just are the way they are.
its just the way it is, i keep telling myself that, i think its important to realise that i cant change much, i'll try and change what i can, but i cant change much.
im going now, that was all a bit random.
i got to see him twice last night, on millionaire and parky. i just think he's great, hes so clever and funny and just brilliant!
i miss my girl terribly much, but im sure noone needs me to tell them that or for me to say anymore.
i've been really stupid lately, well not just lately, forever. maybe i've spent too long by myself and have let myself get into stupid cycles. i don't really know, but i do know that i need to stop it, i feel so ridiculous, and highly embarassed and ashamed. no wonder i never used to speak to anyone, i was too embarassed to tell them about the real me. the stupid things i do and think. i want to cut it out now, so its not part of me anymore, i cant carry on like this, i'll only end up with people not liking me or being pushed away. im scared of being like this forever, i hate it.
i feel really frustrated with some things at the moment, well i have done for a long time now. im too tired to sit and write it all down now, it wouldn't do any good anyway, things just are the way they are.
its just the way it is, i keep telling myself that, i think its important to realise that i cant change much, i'll try and change what i can, but i cant change much.
im going now, that was all a bit random.