"DON'T WAKE ME I PLAN ON SLEEPING"
Marry him or marry me,
I’m the one that loves you baby can’t you see?
Ain’t got no future or a family tree,
But I know what a prince and lover ought to be,
I know what a prince and lover ought to be....
Said, if you want to call me baby
(just go ahead, now)
An’ if you’d like to tell me maybe
(just go ahead, now)
If you wanna buy me flowers
(just go ahead, now)
And if you’d like to talk for hours
(just go ahead, now)
im not so sure if ive ever been in love. ive said it many times, but has it ever been real? i try honesty, and it works for awhile, but a facade of happiness takes over when the same stuff gets old. this time its different, i feel it in my heart. i cant stop smiling and my face hurts. this is the worst ive ever written, but i know what i mean, why should even bother? it matters to no one but me.
Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's cracked leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last
It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses
this new feeling feels so good. just like how i feel in his arms. thats one of the best feelings in the world. its all i need, just for someone to care for me the way i do for them. he makes me so happy without even trying.
The rhythm of the rain
Breaking the silence beating against my window
As the moment slips away
I just can’t explain
In your absence there is nothing
I try in vain but I can’t kiss the rain
a doubt just crossed my mind. arghhhhh, but someone like him i know i won't find. im in need of something. i'll be walking one day in a street far away. ill see your face in a crowd and smile. knowing how you made me laugh, hearing sweet echos of you from the past. i will remember you....
Kiss the rain whenever you need me
Kiss the rain whenever I'm gone too long
If your lips feel lonely and thirsty
Kiss the rain and wait for the dawn
Keep in mind, we're under the same sky
And the nights as empty for me as for you
If you feel you can't wait till morning
Kiss the rain, kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
okay this doesn't even coincide with the rest of my lame entry. i need to go on a vacation alone. but i guess it wouldn't be a vacation since i wouldn't come back. i need an escape i need to runaway. i have no where to go if i did. i honestly don't have anyone to go to. just myself. i need to stop all this pitty. shit! i thought i knew. i screwed up again and again and again.......... i cant get it right i can't. fucking 6th avenue heartache. i shouldve never even started with all this bull shit. i don't need anyone to hold me up. i have my fingers crossed on a shooting star, but that won't take me far. this black shadow wont go away, it won't leave me alone. now i realize its me, i am the black shadow, im making myself depressed and thirsty for sorrow. i need not be accompanied. i don't belong with any " significant other" i'm happy on my own right? last fucking time i let my EMOtions flow. i don't care if you understand, im better off alone. i dont even know what i'm saying......yes i do. i know, i give up. im done.
* m@ndy *
"...i wish i could speak my point of veiw but its not sain...." "...i start to complain when there's no rain..it rips my life but it's a great ESCAPE..."
"i brought this upon myself."