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YoU suck! juuuuuust kidding. 2 nites football game....urggg. i really don't feel up for anything. i've been stressing so much. with school, i'm on the brink of failing algebra II! oh my gosh, i'm doing horrible. what else? OH YES. friends, lets just say, "with friends like these we don't need enemys." that's soo true. i've been quite distant when it comes to friends lately...but that's not all my fault. they say things to me as if i'm stupid, but i keep my mouth shut because i'm not. i really don't understand that childish outlook on things. it just makes me feel retarted. i don't like to feel dumbed down. and i don't mean that i'm book smart or anything, cuz i'm not. but i'm not...i can't take stupidity. and lately, for some reason, that's all that's around. oh well, right? what else, oh yes, cheerleading. for those of you who went to slider, you know that *starlets* were way more than mhs cheering will ever be. it's blately obvious...but the thing that made me sad was that yesterday i was just sitting on a chair observing all the squads. i kind of wanted to cry when i relized that "i didn't belong". i mean, its not even that fun anymore. there's so much drama. and the only thing worse than that is "LAMEdrama". seriously,GET OVER IT HAG!!! (i love that movie!) but anywho, i really can't stand almost all that goes on. the only thing i look forward to now, besides you babe, is my sussical rehersals. i mean, everyone there is so down to earth there. and everyone always makes me laugh with out even knowing. ITS GREAT! i've been able to catch up with old friends, and make some new ones on the side. i love the taste of new friends after school..ok that was weird. but anyways, i've been able to let out some feelings to a new friend i've made, and it takes so much off of me, so that makes me smile. but other than that, life's at about a 4. yup. and i know vacation right? i should be happy! WRONG! i have to read a stupid book and do a stupid bigrophy, and stupid vocab, and stupid cheer practice for a stupid waste of a time competiton, but YAY i have sussical practice...ha! i'm such a freak. (harsh, kind of) well i guess i'll try to make things better without continuing this facade...it'll be hard, but the point is that i try! see you guys later!
* m@ndy *
* m@ndy *