He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not...
Summary: By plucking the petals from a flower, Ianto thinks about his life with Jack.
Warnings: mentions of sex
Spoilers: Quite a few episodes from both series.
Rating: pg-13
Character Pairings: Jack/Ianto
Preview: They gazed into each other’s eyes, eyes that had filled with desire, limbs became entwined, breathing was hard and for both men a spark had been born from that very day.
Other Notes: Another old fic that I have edited and hopefully made better.
He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not
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Ianto wouldn’t deny the fact that he felt stupid. ‘Isn’t this something that little girls do?’ he thought as he fixed his gaze down onto the fresh spring grass. ‘With their friends in the playground on a summers day?’
He perched himself on the edge of the park bench and leant down to the floor. ‘I’m just curious though…’ Ianto took a deep sigh and then picked a purple flower from the ground.
He wasnt sure what species it was, obviously it was nothing like the ones in the hothouse as they were all of alien origin but he suspected that it was just some kind of innocent weed growing between the grass.
The juices from the weeping stem felt cool and sticky between his thumbs but it was soothing in the heat of the day. Cardiff hadn’t experienced rain for a few days and the air was strangely dry for the spring. Jack had been keeping close watch on the rift monitor and air temp just incase. Both Ianto and Gwen shared his concerns, they all hoped that it was simply down to freaky weather and not some brewing alien invasion. They wouldnt be able to cope with that right now, not this close after Tosh and Owen had passed away...
Ianto plucked the first petal from the flower and spoke aloud.
“He loves me” - Sex.
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Ianto felt that he was no longer just a quick shag in the office or an object of 'pleasure' to secure Jack’s needs. It had become so much more than that over the last year and a half.
At first it had been fumbled, rough and hurried. The time and place didn’t really matter, over Jack’s desk, the Torchwood sofa, the backseat of the SUV and Ianto was even ashamed to say that the floor had once sufficed for their sexual desires.
But nowadays, Ianto found that they even made it to a bed and Jack was different, more compassionate and caring. They now shared softer words all the way from start to climax and even at the times they decided to take things ‘rougher’ Ianto still felt a gentler side to Jack and amidst the heat and the sweat… he found he loved it, found he loved him.
Ianto Jones now believed that sex with Jack was no longer just a quick shag or a mindless fuck. Instead they were making love and deep down he was sure that Jack felt the same way.
“He loves me not” - Gwen.
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They look at each other sometimes but they don’t say anything and Ianto found that worse than anything, to not know how they feel for each other.
He likes Gwen, of course he does but he loves Jack and this causes a problem…
Ianto thinks about it a lot:
‘They don’t love each other though… do they? Jack’s sleeping with me, not her… that’s got to mean something surely…’
‘Gwen is married now, she loves Rhys but maybe she just desires Jack?’
All that Ianto hopes for is that Jack desires the life that Gwen has, settled with someone to love, and not Gwen herself…
“He loves me” - He came back for me.
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It always made Ianto feel strange when he thought about it
‘It was me who Jack came back for.’
He’d said some powerful words to him ‘I came back for you’ that has got to mean something stronger than friendship… hasn’t it?
Jack had a strange look in his eyes at the time. Was it sincerity?
“He loves me not” - Silence
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Not once has Jack said ‘Ianto, I love you’
Even during the heat of passion, when Jack was buried beneath Ianto's skin, when their limbs were entwined or when they came, whispering eachother's names... nothing...
He hints at it. - ‘Being here ive seen things I never dreamt I’d see, loved people I never would’ve known if I’d just stayed where I was…and I wouldn’t change that for the world’ and then they kissed. A heated, passionate kiss that ended in Jack's bunker during the small hours but still... nothing.
More often that not he’ll say it in a different way but he has never said it directly and maybe he never will.
Maybe its Jack’s long life of loosing lovers and friends that has made him physically unable to say those words…
Ianto wished he could change Jack's mind.
“He loves me” - Date
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Ianto will never forget their first proper date.
Ok so the wild sex had come first many times before and the date being after wasn’t exactly traditional in Ianto's eyes but it was him who Jack had asked on a date, like a proper gentleman, all formal and so ‘un-Jack-like’ but it was perfect.
The two of them sat there, eating and talking whilst being surrounded with a peaceful orange glow created by the candles.
That night they’d had sex back at Ianto’s flat…wait… Ianto wouldn’t call it just ‘sex’, he almost refused to brand it as that, it sounded cheap and dirty… that night they’d made love back at Ianto’s flat and the entire evening had been amazing - Ianto Jones would never forget.
“He loves me not” - others
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There are always other in Jack’s life, John, the doctor… the list goes on and one day would he abandon Ianto for one of them?
He’d left for the doctor once but then again… he came back and he came back for Ianto.
“He loves me” - The kiss
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One of their first proper kisses had been a shock to Ianto.
He wasn’t the one to initiate it and was quite surprised when Jack took hold of him and planted a chaste kiss onto his lips. What had also been shocking was the fact that it was infront of the other team members.
There had been noting sexual about the kiss and that gave Ianto reason to believe that maybe Jack did love him…
“He loves me not” - ok?
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‘Sometimes he doesn’t ask if I’m ok’
One of the deluded ‘cash-cow brothers’ could’ve shot and killed him. Jack saw, he was watching but what did he shout at him - ‘Ianto, go, after him!’
There was no ‘are you ok?’ from his near death experience and it still upset him sometimes.
Maybe Jack felt that Ianto was stronger than that and didn’t need Jack’s words of reassurance but it still made Ianto feel better inside.
He had said it before though… when Ianto was almost crushed by the beams and rubble from one of Captain John’s explosions. He held onto him too and Ianto felt instantly better.
“He Loves me” - Sexual tension
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The day that they apprehended Myfanwy.
It was only one of their first meetings when Jack ended up lying onto of him. It was purely by accident of course - chasing a Pteranodon can end in something like that (obviously)
They gazed into each other’s eyes, eyes that had filled with desire, limbs became entwined, breathing was hard and for both men a spark had been born from that very day.
“He loves me not” - Secrets
-----------------------------------
Ianto was grateful that he was the man who Jack could confide in. the man who Jack told the most to but sometimes he felt that Jack didn’t tell him enough.
Were they not in a stage of their relationship where Jack felt that he could tell him everything?
“He loves me”
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And Ianto Jones ran out of petals…
Warnings: mentions of sex
Spoilers: Quite a few episodes from both series.
Rating: pg-13
Character Pairings: Jack/Ianto
Preview: They gazed into each other’s eyes, eyes that had filled with desire, limbs became entwined, breathing was hard and for both men a spark had been born from that very day.
Other Notes: Another old fic that I have edited and hopefully made better.
He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not
----------------------------------------
Ianto wouldn’t deny the fact that he felt stupid. ‘Isn’t this something that little girls do?’ he thought as he fixed his gaze down onto the fresh spring grass. ‘With their friends in the playground on a summers day?’
He perched himself on the edge of the park bench and leant down to the floor. ‘I’m just curious though…’ Ianto took a deep sigh and then picked a purple flower from the ground.
He wasnt sure what species it was, obviously it was nothing like the ones in the hothouse as they were all of alien origin but he suspected that it was just some kind of innocent weed growing between the grass.
The juices from the weeping stem felt cool and sticky between his thumbs but it was soothing in the heat of the day. Cardiff hadn’t experienced rain for a few days and the air was strangely dry for the spring. Jack had been keeping close watch on the rift monitor and air temp just incase. Both Ianto and Gwen shared his concerns, they all hoped that it was simply down to freaky weather and not some brewing alien invasion. They wouldnt be able to cope with that right now, not this close after Tosh and Owen had passed away...
Ianto plucked the first petal from the flower and spoke aloud.
“He loves me” - Sex.
-------------------------
Ianto felt that he was no longer just a quick shag in the office or an object of 'pleasure' to secure Jack’s needs. It had become so much more than that over the last year and a half.
At first it had been fumbled, rough and hurried. The time and place didn’t really matter, over Jack’s desk, the Torchwood sofa, the backseat of the SUV and Ianto was even ashamed to say that the floor had once sufficed for their sexual desires.
But nowadays, Ianto found that they even made it to a bed and Jack was different, more compassionate and caring. They now shared softer words all the way from start to climax and even at the times they decided to take things ‘rougher’ Ianto still felt a gentler side to Jack and amidst the heat and the sweat… he found he loved it, found he loved him.
Ianto Jones now believed that sex with Jack was no longer just a quick shag or a mindless fuck. Instead they were making love and deep down he was sure that Jack felt the same way.
“He loves me not” - Gwen.
---------------------------------
They look at each other sometimes but they don’t say anything and Ianto found that worse than anything, to not know how they feel for each other.
He likes Gwen, of course he does but he loves Jack and this causes a problem…
Ianto thinks about it a lot:
‘They don’t love each other though… do they? Jack’s sleeping with me, not her… that’s got to mean something surely…’
‘Gwen is married now, she loves Rhys but maybe she just desires Jack?’
All that Ianto hopes for is that Jack desires the life that Gwen has, settled with someone to love, and not Gwen herself…
“He loves me” - He came back for me.
------------------------------------------------
It always made Ianto feel strange when he thought about it
‘It was me who Jack came back for.’
He’d said some powerful words to him ‘I came back for you’ that has got to mean something stronger than friendship… hasn’t it?
Jack had a strange look in his eyes at the time. Was it sincerity?
“He loves me not” - Silence
-------------------------------------
Not once has Jack said ‘Ianto, I love you’
Even during the heat of passion, when Jack was buried beneath Ianto's skin, when their limbs were entwined or when they came, whispering eachother's names... nothing...
He hints at it. - ‘Being here ive seen things I never dreamt I’d see, loved people I never would’ve known if I’d just stayed where I was…and I wouldn’t change that for the world’ and then they kissed. A heated, passionate kiss that ended in Jack's bunker during the small hours but still... nothing.
More often that not he’ll say it in a different way but he has never said it directly and maybe he never will.
Maybe its Jack’s long life of loosing lovers and friends that has made him physically unable to say those words…
Ianto wished he could change Jack's mind.
“He loves me” - Date
---------------------------
Ianto will never forget their first proper date.
Ok so the wild sex had come first many times before and the date being after wasn’t exactly traditional in Ianto's eyes but it was him who Jack had asked on a date, like a proper gentleman, all formal and so ‘un-Jack-like’ but it was perfect.
The two of them sat there, eating and talking whilst being surrounded with a peaceful orange glow created by the candles.
That night they’d had sex back at Ianto’s flat…wait… Ianto wouldn’t call it just ‘sex’, he almost refused to brand it as that, it sounded cheap and dirty… that night they’d made love back at Ianto’s flat and the entire evening had been amazing - Ianto Jones would never forget.
“He loves me not” - others
--------------------------------
There are always other in Jack’s life, John, the doctor… the list goes on and one day would he abandon Ianto for one of them?
He’d left for the doctor once but then again… he came back and he came back for Ianto.
“He loves me” - The kiss
-------------------------------
One of their first proper kisses had been a shock to Ianto.
He wasn’t the one to initiate it and was quite surprised when Jack took hold of him and planted a chaste kiss onto his lips. What had also been shocking was the fact that it was infront of the other team members.
There had been noting sexual about the kiss and that gave Ianto reason to believe that maybe Jack did love him…
“He loves me not” - ok?
-------------------------------
‘Sometimes he doesn’t ask if I’m ok’
One of the deluded ‘cash-cow brothers’ could’ve shot and killed him. Jack saw, he was watching but what did he shout at him - ‘Ianto, go, after him!’
There was no ‘are you ok?’ from his near death experience and it still upset him sometimes.
Maybe Jack felt that Ianto was stronger than that and didn’t need Jack’s words of reassurance but it still made Ianto feel better inside.
He had said it before though… when Ianto was almost crushed by the beams and rubble from one of Captain John’s explosions. He held onto him too and Ianto felt instantly better.
“He Loves me” - Sexual tension
---------------------------------------
The day that they apprehended Myfanwy.
It was only one of their first meetings when Jack ended up lying onto of him. It was purely by accident of course - chasing a Pteranodon can end in something like that (obviously)
They gazed into each other’s eyes, eyes that had filled with desire, limbs became entwined, breathing was hard and for both men a spark had been born from that very day.
“He loves me not” - Secrets
-----------------------------------
Ianto was grateful that he was the man who Jack could confide in. the man who Jack told the most to but sometimes he felt that Jack didn’t tell him enough.
Were they not in a stage of their relationship where Jack felt that he could tell him everything?
“He loves me”
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And Ianto Jones ran out of petals…