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that's what my brain is like right now. This is my first entry, and it's depressing. greeat. w/e. What's new. I go through this daily. HAPPY sad HAPPY sad. It's getting old. I'm tired of waiting. Of crazzies, and missing calls. I had so much to say...and now. Now it will wait. Until 11:00? Tomorrow night? Sunday? I have no clue, and if you know me, I HATE not knowing. I HATE being unliked. I wish. I don't know. I wish that I could get over it. Because when I'm with him...I'm so happy. But the day to day waiting. It's hell. Waiting for him to be ready to go into this with everyting. ITS BEEN 6 WEEKS, and I'm starting to wonder...does he just want some? or does he want...a relationship? someone he bounces ideas off of, someone to talk to, to hold. I'm starting to wonder if its a big lie.