I'm really not this depressing.
I just write down how I feel when I'm pissed with myself/the world. I can't figure myself out out let alone the rest of the human race, may it be male or female. I can't figure this out how instead of saying my thoughts and how I feel; I make myelf sick worrying and thinking about it. I just want to break down and cry......but I won't let myself because it isnt worth it. But it is. but it's not. shit.