catharsis
I am seeking catharsis.
I felt it after watching A Ghost Story (2017). The next night was spent picking the scab 'til I bled, and boy howdy did I bleed. Grateful my friend Eric in DC called me back.
Lisa Walling, years ago, gave me a tarot deck. The Haidl deck. Never resonated with me. I used it once and that was October. I realized it didn't match me, so I gave it away on Craigslist. The whole afternoon I was listening to Dark Rooms's I Get Overwhelmed. Someone offered to take the deck. We met at the TRPD. Ihanded over the cards and said something like, "Be good to them", and the other person said they're going to a good home. I didn't say, "It's not their fault" but I should have said it.
Went to Shoprite, broke down crying 3x, then came hlme. As I was carrying in groceries Eric phoned me We spoke, he had tp tend to his little girl, and after the call ended I wept almost as hard as I wept for Dorpy.
I need that again. I need to clear my mind of this depressive haze.