I love my baby, I really do. It just sucks I'm only a mom anymore. I miss my husband. The way he used to be. Now it's all about our baby. She's the only thing that matters. I want to matter too.
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hey, sorry. i'm pretty sure i was an asshole to about everybody.  sorry... i'm trying to fix it.

i am sitting around at my mother's house waiting for her to get out of the shower. my dad's trying to eat, so post it is. my condo's just about done. except for the bathroom which still needs work. we're haven't had the time to go buy the washer/dryer cabinets and floor yet. but hopefully we can get that done soon so i don't have to hate my ( Read more... )

we got the place. i spent the evening painting our bedroom. i am covered in paint and cranky as hell. haha. also our closes costs were way lower than expected, so we got a thousand dollars to have fun with. when everything is set into place, i'll start inviting people over. but this is probably the last post for a long time. not that that is a big ( Read more... )

todays the big day. wish me luck. god, i can't even sleep.

so, hopefully on tuesday be getting my new condo. unless miss owner fucks everything up.  so i've been packing my shit up and coming across old pictures.  which pisses me off. because it's real easy to block people out when you don't have to see their face.  anyway, it's emotional that i had to see my parents new house and i had to feel bad about ( Read more... )

you're the reason i'm rushing to move out you mooching self-centered asshole. why the fuck do you think that you're still living at home? BECAUSE NO ONE WANTS TO LIVE WITH A MOTHER FUCKING LOW LIFE LIKE YOU!  you keep dreaming about traveling and being something great one day. cause that's all it is, a dream.  you're just going to end up a self- ( Read more... )

life is pretty decent. i'm talking to a friend, whom i love, who i haven't talked to in for in forever. i have a decent chance in getting a condo. life doesn't suck. work does, but i won't go into it.

at least a few things go the right way.

you know what, i like when i try  to keep in touch with people. and then they can't even bother to say hi. thanks friend.

i don't think there is anything more comforting that 2:43 in the morning. this is my time of day. i can't hear the traffic, it's dark, and it's silent. i have had 7 hours of sleep in the last three days. i woke up at 7 this morning. and despite that, i feel so calm and comforted at my time of day.