End of the year random gibberish.
I noticed that I dont really write in here as often as I use to, which is kind of sad because I kind of like writing (more like I love ranting) in here. It's my little place to release some thoughts from my head (plus it's kind of fun to go back into time and read some of these entries half a year later). Well anyways seeing that its almost the end of the year, I kind of want to record what's going on in my life so far now.
Well, to start things off, my mother's surgery was a success and she is now recovering. It was a 12 hour surgery so it's definitely going to take some time for the surgery area to heal, but at least she's going to feel a whole lot better after this. I've been taking care of her the entire summer and it was really hard to leave home for Buffalo this year, with uncertainties of the surgery's possibility. I actually wanted to take the year off from school so I can take care of her, but you know how mothers are...especially when it's the last year before graduation. Well, this was the third bullet dodged (and please God let this be the last) and all we can do now is wait while the area heals. Once my mother is fully recovered, we're getting her a puppy, either from the pet store or through adoption (most likely adoption). We're thinking either dalmatian or lab retreiver (most likely dalmatian)...or whatever captures our hearts lol. I really want a dog that you can cuddle with as a pup and wrastle with when it gets older lol.
Anyways, graduation is near and the real world is knocking at my door, not sure if I'm ready to open it yet (*knock knock* "Oh shit, what time is it? I still haven't showered yet! Come back later!"). It's really scary when thinking about it...even scarier when worrying about. I mean, a real job? Nine to five? While riding back down to the city for this break with my friend Peter, we actually talked about this. After graduation, the easy and fun life that we're living now, that we've grown so fondly of, is never going to be the same. No more sleeping til noon, no more month long winter breaks....no more summer breaks! We're going to spend most of our days at work, forced to be friends with the people you work with...like you have to be friends with them just becuase most of the day would be spent with them. Urrgggh I wish I was still a freshman...dont get me wrong, college was a blast, but there's still much to do, so many people that I still want to meet, and so much to laugh about.
As for my major? I hate it. My internship? It's tolerable...now that they offered me a paying position, but still annoying. The office life is just not for me. Granted that I dont have to wear a suit to work (I hate formality. If it was up to me, everyone can wear whatever they want to work, as long as theyre comfortable and happy), handling rehab grant applications and telling people that they cant get money to fix their homes...yeah not my cup of tea. With all that said, I still hope this internship will eventually land me a job here in the city. Bills gots to be paid and moneys gots to be saved for grad school son. I've decided to stay in the city for grad school...it's home, I love it and I will never move (cept maybe if it's to Canada or the UK...or Norway lol). I've also decided to go into the interior design field. I cant handle being couped up in an office full of files and living life like a 90's movie cliche ("I hate my job...I hate my job...I hate my job"... *phone rings*... "Good morning") Watch Office Space or Fight Club lol. I need to work with my hands...I need a job that will challege me creatively. I need a job where I can actually have fun in and outside of work. I met this really cool Canadian girl at the Gym Class Heroes concert this year, and other than the fact that she's ridiculously cute and the most down to earth girl I have ever met...she's basically living the life that I always thought I would be able to live, or something similar to it. Simple life...loads of fun. Working a job that you love and living life to the fullest at the same time. Meeting her this year just made me realize how much I dont want to be in this field anymore.
Love life? Eh...I dont even know what I want anymore. Well that's not entirely true lol. All these years I have learned that I have got to slow things down and sometimes look at thing realistically. Also, learned that no matter how much they might like you, the one that you want the most is always unattainable. *sigh* Some love songs never felt so right til now. *sigh* It hurts so good though...it hurts so good lol (eh...not entirely true).
Anyways, like I said last year..."It's a new year and I'm a new man!". Eh...well old man to be correct. I'm starting to feel and act like my old self again. I have forgiven and forgotten all of the past wrongs. I no longer live with my fist clenched, no longer hold a personal vendetta, and no longer have that bitterness on my tongue. Just plain old happy me, full of laughs and love in my heart (haha that statement was so corny, you can pop it over the stove and sneak it into the movie theaters).
Ahhh...life is good. It's all good.
Well, to start things off, my mother's surgery was a success and she is now recovering. It was a 12 hour surgery so it's definitely going to take some time for the surgery area to heal, but at least she's going to feel a whole lot better after this. I've been taking care of her the entire summer and it was really hard to leave home for Buffalo this year, with uncertainties of the surgery's possibility. I actually wanted to take the year off from school so I can take care of her, but you know how mothers are...especially when it's the last year before graduation. Well, this was the third bullet dodged (and please God let this be the last) and all we can do now is wait while the area heals. Once my mother is fully recovered, we're getting her a puppy, either from the pet store or through adoption (most likely adoption). We're thinking either dalmatian or lab retreiver (most likely dalmatian)...or whatever captures our hearts lol. I really want a dog that you can cuddle with as a pup and wrastle with when it gets older lol.
Anyways, graduation is near and the real world is knocking at my door, not sure if I'm ready to open it yet (*knock knock* "Oh shit, what time is it? I still haven't showered yet! Come back later!"). It's really scary when thinking about it...even scarier when worrying about. I mean, a real job? Nine to five? While riding back down to the city for this break with my friend Peter, we actually talked about this. After graduation, the easy and fun life that we're living now, that we've grown so fondly of, is never going to be the same. No more sleeping til noon, no more month long winter breaks....no more summer breaks! We're going to spend most of our days at work, forced to be friends with the people you work with...like you have to be friends with them just becuase most of the day would be spent with them. Urrgggh I wish I was still a freshman...dont get me wrong, college was a blast, but there's still much to do, so many people that I still want to meet, and so much to laugh about.
As for my major? I hate it. My internship? It's tolerable...now that they offered me a paying position, but still annoying. The office life is just not for me. Granted that I dont have to wear a suit to work (I hate formality. If it was up to me, everyone can wear whatever they want to work, as long as theyre comfortable and happy), handling rehab grant applications and telling people that they cant get money to fix their homes...yeah not my cup of tea. With all that said, I still hope this internship will eventually land me a job here in the city. Bills gots to be paid and moneys gots to be saved for grad school son. I've decided to stay in the city for grad school...it's home, I love it and I will never move (cept maybe if it's to Canada or the UK...or Norway lol). I've also decided to go into the interior design field. I cant handle being couped up in an office full of files and living life like a 90's movie cliche ("I hate my job...I hate my job...I hate my job"... *phone rings*... "Good morning") Watch Office Space or Fight Club lol. I need to work with my hands...I need a job that will challege me creatively. I need a job where I can actually have fun in and outside of work. I met this really cool Canadian girl at the Gym Class Heroes concert this year, and other than the fact that she's ridiculously cute and the most down to earth girl I have ever met...she's basically living the life that I always thought I would be able to live, or something similar to it. Simple life...loads of fun. Working a job that you love and living life to the fullest at the same time. Meeting her this year just made me realize how much I dont want to be in this field anymore.
Love life? Eh...I dont even know what I want anymore. Well that's not entirely true lol. All these years I have learned that I have got to slow things down and sometimes look at thing realistically. Also, learned that no matter how much they might like you, the one that you want the most is always unattainable. *sigh* Some love songs never felt so right til now. *sigh* It hurts so good though...it hurts so good lol (eh...not entirely true).
Anyways, like I said last year..."It's a new year and I'm a new man!". Eh...well old man to be correct. I'm starting to feel and act like my old self again. I have forgiven and forgotten all of the past wrongs. I no longer live with my fist clenched, no longer hold a personal vendetta, and no longer have that bitterness on my tongue. Just plain old happy me, full of laughs and love in my heart (haha that statement was so corny, you can pop it over the stove and sneak it into the movie theaters).
Ahhh...life is good. It's all good.