And if when I say I might fade like a sigh if I stay......
aaaaaaahhh, what a day what a day..... It was like a quiet house where only days previous someone had been visciously murdered, thats what my day was like. Calm, relaxed basically, uneventful on the outside, but I have not been so relaxed or calm on the inside, I have been really really introspective, actually. Hmm, how much should I divulge here? My English lecturer David told us about what is and isn't ethical to retell in an autobiography (or 'autobogfy' as he calls it). Its a debatable point. On the one hand, if one is retelling ones life he/she should be as factual as possible, especially if it helps the author to convey emotional material. The flipside to this is that the people being written about might not necesarily want made public their intimacies they shared with the author. What is the solution? Is there a happy medium? I don't know. Someone told me last night that every girl will try to make her boyfriend jealous.... Is this true? I doubt it very much, I mean, I know girls that wouldn't do that. But I was also told that, like, there is nothing vindictive or cruel about it when they are trying to do so, its just so the boy will make a fuss, therefore showing the girl what she means to him. Lets think about this for a second. Girl makes boy jealous so that he will yeild a positive reaction thus making girl feel better about herself. Is it me, or is this an entirely selfish thing to do? Satisfy the ego at the expense of the person you are supposed to love, feeling good? But, you know, thats JUST my opinion... I don't know, I think its a pretty negative thing to do, I mean there has to be far better ways to go about getting some kind of positivity from your man other than trying to make him jealous. It's like if I slap you are you going to compliment me in return? and if not why not???? well, think about it.... On some level reality has to kick in and we see that if you do something to make another person feel bad (regardless of whether you are trying to be vindictive or just so they will make you feel good in return) then the response just MAY not be exactly as you would like it... and if such a response isn't in your favour, is the other person to blame, really? Or should the finger of blame turn toward the one who was out to get affection at the expense of the others feelings? Is there ever really such a thing as GOOD jealousy? Thomas Hobbes really did get some things right, afterall....