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Off to the interview thing in an hour but I am feeling relaxed and confident about it aside from the fact that I can't speak properly because my throat has been aggravated.
Yesterday, I spent the first fifteen minutes of therapy being convulsed in an asthma attack going *i won't throw up because that would be embarassing and rude*. Calmed down eventually even though my throat still feels wrecked from all the wheezing and coughing and I spent the next hour and a bit talking in a sort of whisper-wheeze.
T and I talked about how I manage to pull off feeling shit and looking good at the same time. He says that he can see absolutely visible changes, mostly to do with self-confidence that in fact he almost didn't recognise me when I was walking down the street towards his office. Talked about some of the constructive things I can be doing and channelling my energy into and was trying to impress upon me the importance of going to
a) see a doctor
b) getting an inhaler
Got stuff accomplished and I do feel better.
I've also realised that the world holds much joy and I need not be alone, not while I could be forming meaningful relationships at http://www.meet-an-inmate.com/
Yesterday, I spent the first fifteen minutes of therapy being convulsed in an asthma attack going *i won't throw up because that would be embarassing and rude*. Calmed down eventually even though my throat still feels wrecked from all the wheezing and coughing and I spent the next hour and a bit talking in a sort of whisper-wheeze.
T and I talked about how I manage to pull off feeling shit and looking good at the same time. He says that he can see absolutely visible changes, mostly to do with self-confidence that in fact he almost didn't recognise me when I was walking down the street towards his office. Talked about some of the constructive things I can be doing and channelling my energy into and was trying to impress upon me the importance of going to
a) see a doctor
b) getting an inhaler
Got stuff accomplished and I do feel better.
I've also realised that the world holds much joy and I need not be alone, not while I could be forming meaningful relationships at http://www.meet-an-inmate.com/