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I appear to have gone on an all day date.
Breakfast, lunch, movie, hypothermia.
And I had the funniest first kiss ever.
We were sitting in his car and leaned in towards each other to kiss, and he accidentally pressed the gas pedal and the car leapt into life.
It kind of killed the moment a little because I was doubled over laughing too hard.
It amuses me that when I saw him a couple of weeks back I thought *oh, I think I've met my next boyfriend*, and I've been trying not to think too much about it in case it was all in my head. It turns out I was right, and I don't know him well yet, but there are many things I like about this man, not the least of which is that he has his own flat and no family.
He is (as far as I've seen) a considerate and gentle human being. He has a terrific sense of humour, and the optimism I find endearing. He is laid back and doesn't seem to hold grudges. He makes me laugh and he doesn't mind my teasing. He is self-contained, and not pushy, and independent - all the things I like greatly in a man. Someone who stands on his own two feet and will not need me.
And I still appear to be holding true to my pattern of getting it on with Saggittarians.
It's all the very beginnings of things though, so no knowing how it will go, and I'm cautiously optimistic. There are many hurdles still to cross, such as sleeping together and seeing how easily we flow together in bed, but most of all it's the stuff in my head.
That here I am, for the first time in forever, dating a MAN! (*gasp of shock*) who lives in the same city and country as me, and who is not someone who I can just run from. There are a lot of things about me that he doesn't know, and that I probably will never tell him because it doesn't feel safe to share them with Yugs (as sooner or later all Yugs are connected, and I don't trust them with my secrets) and I feel really scared. Freaking out actually. Reaching for brown paper bags kind of thing.
So I'm trying to tell myself to calm it down.
Take things one step at a time.
And in the midst of all this, I'm laughing at myself as how I've told several friends recently that I want to be in a relationship, a proper long-term one, just as my next challenge to see if I can do it, and now here there's a potential for that and all I'm thinking is *AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! Me and my BIG mouth*.
But well.
Deep breating and crossing of fingers. ANd probably lots of writing in the coming future.
And on another note Enduring Love is an excellent film.
Breakfast, lunch, movie, hypothermia.
And I had the funniest first kiss ever.
We were sitting in his car and leaned in towards each other to kiss, and he accidentally pressed the gas pedal and the car leapt into life.
It kind of killed the moment a little because I was doubled over laughing too hard.
It amuses me that when I saw him a couple of weeks back I thought *oh, I think I've met my next boyfriend*, and I've been trying not to think too much about it in case it was all in my head. It turns out I was right, and I don't know him well yet, but there are many things I like about this man, not the least of which is that he has his own flat and no family.
He is (as far as I've seen) a considerate and gentle human being. He has a terrific sense of humour, and the optimism I find endearing. He is laid back and doesn't seem to hold grudges. He makes me laugh and he doesn't mind my teasing. He is self-contained, and not pushy, and independent - all the things I like greatly in a man. Someone who stands on his own two feet and will not need me.
And I still appear to be holding true to my pattern of getting it on with Saggittarians.
It's all the very beginnings of things though, so no knowing how it will go, and I'm cautiously optimistic. There are many hurdles still to cross, such as sleeping together and seeing how easily we flow together in bed, but most of all it's the stuff in my head.
That here I am, for the first time in forever, dating a MAN! (*gasp of shock*) who lives in the same city and country as me, and who is not someone who I can just run from. There are a lot of things about me that he doesn't know, and that I probably will never tell him because it doesn't feel safe to share them with Yugs (as sooner or later all Yugs are connected, and I don't trust them with my secrets) and I feel really scared. Freaking out actually. Reaching for brown paper bags kind of thing.
So I'm trying to tell myself to calm it down.
Take things one step at a time.
And in the midst of all this, I'm laughing at myself as how I've told several friends recently that I want to be in a relationship, a proper long-term one, just as my next challenge to see if I can do it, and now here there's a potential for that and all I'm thinking is *AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! Me and my BIG mouth*.
But well.
Deep breating and crossing of fingers. ANd probably lots of writing in the coming future.
And on another note Enduring Love is an excellent film.