Jul 12, 2011 21:18
Life has been a natural disaster lately (and I say that in the best way possible...), not like a fast hitting tornado, but more like a slow-moving avalanche. It churns and turns you so many times that soon, you don't know what way is up.
For those who need a recap, my world was turned upside down when my boyfriend of nearly 2 years (whom I had been renting a house with) dumped me, citing that he no longer loved me. I tried to live with him for about a month post-break up and simply could not do it. It weighed me down every day and snuffed out who I was as a person.
I finally took a leap of faith and chose to move out, and into student housing. It's been perfect (I've yet to have roommates) and I think my personality is finally shining through. I'm happy all the time, energetic and willing to take risks. I've lost weight, and it's hard to think of a time when I'm not smiling.
I've learned to appreciate and love my friends and family more than ever before, and I hope that they know this.
I met a boy, too. He's lovely and wonderful in every sense of the word. So, we've only had one date so far (our second one is tomorrow evening), but we talk a lot, and I already adore him; his sense of humour, his kindness, his shyness, how thoughtful he is, his looks, everything.
There's a lot of doubts in my mind, yes. Doubts that I could so easily be heart broken all over again, doubts of why would he want to be with me? Doubts that I try to shake off, because frankly, he gives me so many reasons to smile.
He makes me want to sing and dance, he makes me want to go to Bollywood classes and throw my soul into every moudrah, every step and every smile.
"The only real stumbling block is fear of failure."
- Julia Child