finishing from before
Ok well now that I am back I have to finish what I was talking about before. I don't exactly remember what I was talking about but I will just go off on a related tangent.
So Valentine's Day is coming up fast, and I don't really know what to do. I mean on Valentine's Day you are supposed to let the one that you love know how you feel. Well if I do that is it going to create problems with people? Is it going to go and raise all these questions? I really don't want to cause anymore problems. So I don't know what to do about that one. I want to still get her something special. Something that will let her know that I do still love her. I mean she already knows I'm sure but still. Then the other thing is that if I do get her something will she think that it is really weird getting something from a friend? I don't know. I mean I usually don't get my friends Valentine's Day gifts. Sorry Fez. Maybe I can make an exception.
I have been told that everything will be ok in the end, but I still get that feeling that I might lose her forever and that is something that haunts me. If things are going to be ok in the end then what am I supposed to do in the meantime? Am I supposed to be looking for that second best or wait? I don't know. I was so sure about things before and now I am so lost and confused. I have no idea of what to do next. Everyone says just move on. Ha it is alot harder than they make it sound. I mean every relationship was different and ours was a weird and awesome relationship that it is going to take me awhile to just move on. How do you just leave someone that meant so much to you and you felt so connected to? How do you just leave the person that made you feel so good about yourself and made you feel like you could do anything? It is not even close to being easy.
Well I think I am done with that for now. So now for something completely different.
Today was a good day. I hit the rec and got to spar for awhile with some people from the NIU Karate club. I have not sparred in years and it felt good to do that again. I never thought I would miss it but after the first round I realized how much I missed it. I will admit that I am alittle slower and rusty but it was still great fun. My body is really sore but it was a blast. I was able to get alot of aggression out. My head is throbbing though because, head pad or not, too many kicks to the head hurt. Haha but I got him back ;) I also found out that my abs are alot better than I thought they were because I could take hits right and left and, well they are sore now, it didn't hurt one bit. This made me miss my friend Chris because we used to spar every now and then and it was a blast. He was like ten times better than me but it was good times and I learned alot from him. Now I won't be seeing him anymore because he moved to California for college and is living there.
I'm sitting here listening to some Jimmy Eats World and just finished hearing "Sweetness" which was the WEGO Cross Country theme song my freshman year. We would always sing it while running. Yes we are losers but screw you guys because it united the team, kind of. I'm surprised that I still remember some of the words. Yea this part had nothing to do with anything.
I'm finished writing for tonight.
So Valentine's Day is coming up fast, and I don't really know what to do. I mean on Valentine's Day you are supposed to let the one that you love know how you feel. Well if I do that is it going to create problems with people? Is it going to go and raise all these questions? I really don't want to cause anymore problems. So I don't know what to do about that one. I want to still get her something special. Something that will let her know that I do still love her. I mean she already knows I'm sure but still. Then the other thing is that if I do get her something will she think that it is really weird getting something from a friend? I don't know. I mean I usually don't get my friends Valentine's Day gifts. Sorry Fez. Maybe I can make an exception.
I have been told that everything will be ok in the end, but I still get that feeling that I might lose her forever and that is something that haunts me. If things are going to be ok in the end then what am I supposed to do in the meantime? Am I supposed to be looking for that second best or wait? I don't know. I was so sure about things before and now I am so lost and confused. I have no idea of what to do next. Everyone says just move on. Ha it is alot harder than they make it sound. I mean every relationship was different and ours was a weird and awesome relationship that it is going to take me awhile to just move on. How do you just leave someone that meant so much to you and you felt so connected to? How do you just leave the person that made you feel so good about yourself and made you feel like you could do anything? It is not even close to being easy.
Well I think I am done with that for now. So now for something completely different.
Today was a good day. I hit the rec and got to spar for awhile with some people from the NIU Karate club. I have not sparred in years and it felt good to do that again. I never thought I would miss it but after the first round I realized how much I missed it. I will admit that I am alittle slower and rusty but it was still great fun. My body is really sore but it was a blast. I was able to get alot of aggression out. My head is throbbing though because, head pad or not, too many kicks to the head hurt. Haha but I got him back ;) I also found out that my abs are alot better than I thought they were because I could take hits right and left and, well they are sore now, it didn't hurt one bit. This made me miss my friend Chris because we used to spar every now and then and it was a blast. He was like ten times better than me but it was good times and I learned alot from him. Now I won't be seeing him anymore because he moved to California for college and is living there.
I'm sitting here listening to some Jimmy Eats World and just finished hearing "Sweetness" which was the WEGO Cross Country theme song my freshman year. We would always sing it while running. Yes we are losers but screw you guys because it united the team, kind of. I'm surprised that I still remember some of the words. Yea this part had nothing to do with anything.
I'm finished writing for tonight.