long time
so when was the last time i got to update? yeah sometime last month. Since them a whole lot of nothing has happened. Which is both good and bad. To quote an old song "like tryin to get oil from a water spout..." If you know the song then you know what I mean if not then ponder it for a while or look up the lyrics.
I have had some time to do some thinking over the last few days, well hell I have had alot of time to do very little of anthing. In other news my ankle although still a lovely shade or purple is not swollen as badly as it was and although still sore at times not as bad. I joined a bowling leauge as a means to let of some stress and try something new in life... not that I can bowl right now but soon. Other news would be i think I might have figured myself out.... In the last 4 years I have dated perhaps 5 girls.... I have been out on a date or something quasi datish less than 10 times.... All total I have to ask why... I mean I have plenty of friends who are very attractive (I would name them but for space ask later) but yet very few of them ever really would I consider asking on a date because of that coinsidence. Problem is that I want a girl like them, but to know someone that well places them into the friend category. Why? Because its easy to keep friends when you are gone. Its hard to keep girlfriends when you are gone. Grant it part of the problem is that I push the girls I date away after a month or 2 because I am afraid of opening myself up to them like I did with amber..... So rather than be vunerable I choose to be single.... Now that I realize this I can stop it I would hope.... I mean after all admitting I have a problem is the first step to a solution right..... well in any case thats enough of m blabering for now, more to follow....
I have had some time to do some thinking over the last few days, well hell I have had alot of time to do very little of anthing. In other news my ankle although still a lovely shade or purple is not swollen as badly as it was and although still sore at times not as bad. I joined a bowling leauge as a means to let of some stress and try something new in life... not that I can bowl right now but soon. Other news would be i think I might have figured myself out.... In the last 4 years I have dated perhaps 5 girls.... I have been out on a date or something quasi datish less than 10 times.... All total I have to ask why... I mean I have plenty of friends who are very attractive (I would name them but for space ask later) but yet very few of them ever really would I consider asking on a date because of that coinsidence. Problem is that I want a girl like them, but to know someone that well places them into the friend category. Why? Because its easy to keep friends when you are gone. Its hard to keep girlfriends when you are gone. Grant it part of the problem is that I push the girls I date away after a month or 2 because I am afraid of opening myself up to them like I did with amber..... So rather than be vunerable I choose to be single.... Now that I realize this I can stop it I would hope.... I mean after all admitting I have a problem is the first step to a solution right..... well in any case thats enough of m blabering for now, more to follow....